It's not that simple after all.

Sometimes not doing anything is the best thing after all.

I'm kinda sick and tired about the same thing happening over and over again.

I've see, seen, saw. But I always ask myself why this happen, why I didn't cherish the chance. Just keep on throwing myself questions which I don't even have an answer to.

Now, I guess I've got an answer.

T.I.M.E.

I'm should be blamed for what has happened actually. Sigh.

Anws, out of a sudden why must I start to do all this now? I guess what I need to do is a motive check. It shouldn't be too tough for me to do such a simple task. But the thing which makes this task difficult is that I have a motive. It's not that simple after all.

So I guess I should just stop trying. But wait until the time when I'm ready, and that with a magical touch from God, everything will just fall into place naturally.

Present Weakness and Resurrection Life

 ¹ Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. ² Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God. ³ And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. ⁴ The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. ⁵ For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake.⁶ For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,”^[a] made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.

 ⁷ But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. ⁸ We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair;⁹ persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. ¹⁰ We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. ¹¹ For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. ¹² So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

 ¹³ It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.”^[b] Since we have that same spirit of^[c]faith, we also believe and therefore speak, ¹⁴ because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you to himself. ¹⁵ All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.

 ¹⁶ Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. ¹⁷ For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. ¹⁸ So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. -2 Corinthians 4. (NIV)

Watched Time Traveler's wife with you on that day. How nice would it be if I can travel back to 16th September. I will not make the same mistake again.

But I guess I should thank God. (:

Because I wasn't a Christian then but I am one now. Whatever happens in the future to the both of us, it's all part of His plan. A lesson for us. I really hope that when I see you, i'll be happy and not be sad thinking about all those flashbacks.

A chain of unresolved questions.

Would you dance with me tonight?

Internal Struggle.

I went through the past few struggles without having God by my side.
I'm really glad that I now have God to go through this struggle with me. (:
I am trying to put my past behind ME.
Must learn to BREAK the BARRIER! (:
Anws, today I learnt a valuable lesson!
I was affected by what someone say. It was like super duper peanuts man. But I didn't know why I was so affected by it. But I believe God wants me to seek Him?
Cos I prayed and asked God to heal me cos ytd God wants you to know said that everything that irritates you about others, is your key to understanding yourself. What angers you in another person is an unhealed aspect of yourself. If you had already resolved that particular issue, you would not be irritated by its reflection back to you, then suddenly this thought popped up into my mind.
"Everybody is good by nature. It's the devil that is tempting them and doing all those evil things because they are not strong spiritually."
I learnt that I have to treat everybody regardless of whether they are good or bad because they are all good by nature.
Going to pray, pray, pray to listen to what He has to say. (:
"He is my light, my strength."


Anws, I went to Ade's house then to watch The Tourist with Adeline, and we makan makan tgt after the movie! (:
This was how I spent my 8 hours break. =x
The Tourist is actually not bad bahh...will give it 3/5 stars. (:

Donning on a new self.

I don't really know why I put this as my title. But anws, today's sermon was by Ps MM. He said something about forgetting the past. I guess it's true. I've been letting my past affect me way too much.
In the FB app for God wants you to know, it has a lot of messages which I think can be applied to this situation.
1. It says breaking the barrier which is fear, thus, leading to a greater reward from God!
Fear is something which is pulling me back from doing what I've always wanted to do.
The more fear you have, the lesser faith you will have. Or rather, when you fear, you have no faith.
2. It says I learn what I do.
I avoid every time. So I learn how to avoid. & I actually become more and better in avoiding. =x *faints.*
Each time when I see you, I always wonder what is the reason why silence is the only thing between us.

Be Flexible.

Learnt a lesson ytd, the last day of the year 2010.
I learnt that I've gotta be flexible as a person.
Things can't always go the way I want it to. Then when it doesn't go the way I want it to be, I will become unhappy. That's for sure.
Many a times, I question myself. Why can't things turn out this way? Why can't she be like this?
Looking at so many people being able to do some things which I wanted to do with my friend as well, it just doesn't come true due to some reasons. But I know that I can't force things to happen. So i'm giving up the thought.
What happened ytd has really hurt me a lot, and I really wonder if there's any purpose in doing it. I almost gave up on something which I really loved most. But after praying to God and thinking about it, I guess I really shouldn't give up on doing something which I like very much just because of one person.
I can't force things to happen but I know I can change the things which makes me happy.
I can change my target of happiness!
Although I am sad because I can't make the thing happen but I know I can think of it from another perspective. Learn to give. The least I can do is to make myself happy by giving in. This way, I will not be unhappy because the thing can't happen but I can be happy because I can give.
Glory be to God. For without Him, I would still be living in anger and bitterness if this incident were to happen to me in the past!!