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When Interest becomes a NIGHTMARE...

Went for my violin lesson today. Having my Grade 3 ABRSM exam in 6 month's time. Was feeling kind of demoralized.

My violin teacher was not really happy with me because I've been spending weeks playing the same piece but just couldn't get it right.

I practice for 1/2 hour - 1 hour a day. But the sound I got was still not up to standard. So I had to keep on trying and trying during the lesson. It turned out that the way I practice is not really correct.

He said I had low expectations for playing violin.

Sigh.

Sometimes I really wonder...taking up violin was my interest and it was a way to cheer me up whenever I'm feeling low. But it seems like it's making me sad now rather than happy.

During the lesson I had an impulse to just ran out and stop learning violin. I don't wanna face the stress, don't wanna hear the criticisms. Don't want any of it! But thank God I had a brain to think. So in the end I stayed for the whole lesson. For my ABRSM examination, i'm going to practice everyday in the midst of such a busy period.

"Winners don't always win, BUT they NEVER quit." -- Forgot who said that.

I really hope I can just do scrap-booking for the rest of my life. But it's not possible.

Life is never easy...

I've learnt quite a number of things today. First is communication. If you don't voice out how you feel, nobody will know what's going through in your mind and hence, don't blame others for what they've said.

Second, focus. If I really focus on doing a particular thing, I would have more time to practice my violin instead of watching television programs all day long.

Third, have expectations. My expectation for violin is low...so I just play the piece, sound's not nice. Never mind. As long as I can play the whole piece is good enough. This was my thinking in the past. From now on, I'm gonna raise my level of expectations. Not nice, play until it's nice. Use my brain to think what results in the result I get.

Lastly, I've learnt not to give up. In life, we may face a lot of challenges. They may be different, but the way you approach all the different situations say something about you. If I gave up on violin today, it just goes to show that I'm a person who gives up easily & cannot take stress. So in future, I will definitely give up if I face other challenges in life.

However, if someone perseveres, if that someone faced other challenges in life, there's a high possibility that the person will not give up. (:

Come back to ME.

Rejoice for it is Sunday! A day that Lord has made! (:

Today's sermon is by SP Lawrence Khong...it was indeed a powerful sermon!

Title: Turning the hearts of children to the Father

What he said was true, that we may not have the perfect parents, but they're still our parents after all. They provide for us, care for us, and we still have to obey them regardless of what they have done.

We didn't choose them as our parents, but they also didn't choose us to be their children...

As young adults, we have to accept and appreciate them as our parents, listen to them, and to forgive them for their faults and failures...

"Be always humble, gentle, and patient. Show your love by being tolerant with one another." -Ephesians 4:2.

He also mentioned something about getting the permission of parents in the issue of baptism. He said that if our parents don't allow, so be it. The most important thing is to obey your parents, though the bible did say that we have to be baptised.

Anws, to summarise me week, I was like practically LATE for almost everything except church!

There's sooooo many things which I have yet complete...

Scrap-booking, studying, going out, running, and playing the violin...

I've been rather addicted to playing this piece Humoresque. It's a nice piece which gives me 3 feelings, a playful feel, another feel of settling down and lastly a kinda sad feeling...I'm trying to play the sad part well cos I love how the B Flat actually makes it very unique and it's pretty nice...

I'm practically playing it everyday before I go out, or at 11 or close to 12am before I sleep...I really can't wait to hear myself play this piece by Antonin Dvorak.

And there's another piece, Fur Elise by Beethoven, I don't mind learning it! (:

Bee Day.

My first week of holidays are coming to an end...I'm only left with a week left to study for my upcoming tests!

Today I was supposed to go to SSDC to take my Final Theory Practice cos I failed my Final Theory Test by like...1 mark? I got 44/50. Can't believe I'm so smart.

Lesson Learnt: Check.

So today I was waiting for the shuttle bus...then I was wondering how come the bus still haven't come yet...so I checked the timing on my BB and realise that the driver went for his meal break. Wth? I ignored my instinct again so I went there like a kuku to wait for a bus which will never come at 11.30am. In the end I went back home to do project for like 6 hours...and I'm still doing now. Alamak. Sociology never fails to make my head pain.

Anws, I cooked 2 simple dishes for my parents! (:

Asparagus and Mushroom Spaghetti...so glad that they love it! =D

A Blessing in Disguise?

Fell sick the past week...it was a superrrrrr crazy experience!
It was URTI at first, but I became kinda weak though...then I became superrrrr tired, face superrrrr pale and was sleeping like a PIG on the couch for 2 and a half days. Cui ttm~
Finally, I've recovered...hmmm, regained 90% of my health. Can jump, can sing, can dance!
During the past few days, though I suffered a lot, made my friends and family members worried for me, but I guess I gained something. I learn to look at things from a different perspective, and try to do things with a different approach. (:
So overall, I didn't get sick for nothing. (: