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When Interest becomes a NIGHTMARE...

Went for my violin lesson today. Having my Grade 3 ABRSM exam in 6 month's time. Was feeling kind of demoralized.

My violin teacher was not really happy with me because I've been spending weeks playing the same piece but just couldn't get it right.

I practice for 1/2 hour - 1 hour a day. But the sound I got was still not up to standard. So I had to keep on trying and trying during the lesson. It turned out that the way I practice is not really correct.

He said I had low expectations for playing violin.

Sigh.

Sometimes I really wonder...taking up violin was my interest and it was a way to cheer me up whenever I'm feeling low. But it seems like it's making me sad now rather than happy.

During the lesson I had an impulse to just ran out and stop learning violin. I don't wanna face the stress, don't wanna hear the criticisms. Don't want any of it! But thank God I had a brain to think. So in the end I stayed for the whole lesson. For my ABRSM examination, i'm going to practice everyday in the midst of such a busy period.

"Winners don't always win, BUT they NEVER quit." -- Forgot who said that.

I really hope I can just do scrap-booking for the rest of my life. But it's not possible.

Life is never easy...

I've learnt quite a number of things today. First is communication. If you don't voice out how you feel, nobody will know what's going through in your mind and hence, don't blame others for what they've said.

Second, focus. If I really focus on doing a particular thing, I would have more time to practice my violin instead of watching television programs all day long.

Third, have expectations. My expectation for violin is low...so I just play the piece, sound's not nice. Never mind. As long as I can play the whole piece is good enough. This was my thinking in the past. From now on, I'm gonna raise my level of expectations. Not nice, play until it's nice. Use my brain to think what results in the result I get.

Lastly, I've learnt not to give up. In life, we may face a lot of challenges. They may be different, but the way you approach all the different situations say something about you. If I gave up on violin today, it just goes to show that I'm a person who gives up easily & cannot take stress. So in future, I will definitely give up if I face other challenges in life.

However, if someone perseveres, if that someone faced other challenges in life, there's a high possibility that the person will not give up. (: