Being Serious.

The message from God today is: Learn to forgive others just because He has forgiven us for all our sins. We might find it hard to do this by ourselves. That's why we need God's love to help us forgive others for their sins.

Anws, I really dislike some people because they show attitude on their faces. When I wanna talk to them, they just show me that "WHAT?!" face. It's so not nice man. If you want others to treat you with respect, start treating others with RESPECT first. If not don't expect them to treat you with respect. Roger?

"My world doesn't revolve around you."

Not prepared.

I feel a bit lethargic when I went to work today...trying to push the job to Eileen to do. Cos I sian-ed alr...=x
I was supposed to work in the morning...but i changed shift with Eileen...so i came in the afternn, gt more time to sleep! :D but i miss Suhaila lahh! =((
Btws, on the train today, I managed to read a few pages of Lady In Waiting. It says that many people are selfish in this world. They focus on the things which they DO NOT have INSTEAD on the things which they have and be grateful for it! If only we learn how to be more grateful and contented, we would have been happier. (:
Anws, today something gross landed somewhere posterior to my right knee. After talking to my patient, I felt something wet near my knee there...so i looked & saw phlegm with a streak of blood!!! & I was like WTH?!?! #$%$%#@#$@!!! GROSS.
Hopefully tomorrow there won't be this kinda thingy on my leg...(:

28th September.

I went to attachment with a HAPPY MOOD! (:
Haha...I guess the reason is because, "I REJOICE IN THE LORD!" :D
Anws, otw to TTSH, I read the bible as usual. I wanted to read this book which is actually your name. But it's not found in the KJV or NET version. So, toooo bad. So I read Ephesians 6 instead. OMG! I think God is trying to tell me something ehh...the first or second verse is telling me to TREAT MY PARENTS WELLLLL! I've been struggling with this...I know they treat me well ttm, but I just find it hard to talk to my mum in peace. Ohhh mannnnn. Then there's also this part whereby it says treat people better i think...just as you're serving the Lord. But before that part, there's the shield of faith, shoes of peace, sword of righteousness....haha. Remind me of the teachings in David's club! Anws, my QT is also about Ephesians, but is Ephesians 1. The bible is really what I need to make myself grow. (:
I've never been soooooooo happy before I guess...i mean when celebrating my birthday! (:
I received A LOT of HELLO KITTY!!! OMG!!! Love it!! (L)(L)(L)
After attachment today, I thought Suhaila went off without me sia...so i rushed to the tearoom, then saw her with a Hello Kitty cake from Polar P & C. :D...she also bought a super duper cutie cupcake with 3 flowers on top of it cos she finds it pretty! & she also bought for me the HK from 7 eleven! Haha! (:
Not forgetting Yee ting, Joanne & FIZZY! Haha...thanks for that HK table lamp!! It's kawaii~ & the cake from Secret Recipe! (: The 5 layers of chocolate! (: Thanks guys!!!!! I really appreciate it! (:
I really appreciate all those blessings from people! (: first time got sooooooo many people wishing me on fb! So i took the time to reply to EVERY SINGLE messages. (:
Then after that, I went home, then went to Triple One to celebrate my birthday with my beloved family members and my bro's gf! (:
She bought for me another 3 HK stuff! Haha! A HK cup, HK hand mitten, & a HK camera pouch! :D Loves~ (L) Then the food there is actually nice ttm!! Esp. the Dynamic Shrimps which i LOVE IT TTM!! But the serving a bit tooooo much ehh! Cannot finish! =(( Then wasted...but overall I like the service. (:
Last but not least, i'm going to talk about my results...hmmmm. When I got my GPA, i was a bit disappointed, and was thinking that God didn't give me the gift which I wanted. But after I've sort out my thoughts, He did not really disappoint me...cos I've improved. It's just that my attachment grading pulled me down. If not, I would've almost hit my target of this sem. But nvm...as long as I've learn it's okays. (:

"He is indeed a faithful God!"

When it gets cold, would you hug me?

Today I did sooooo many skills in one day! Woooooo! Thank God man! Indeed He is faithful! (:
I did NGT feeding, OFF-ed catheter, given ducolax, off plug, did CIC, did hypocount, & scheduled feeds! (: Then i stayed back for like 5 mins to practice gloving! Haha! thanks to my sweaty palms...but I took less than 5 mins lahh...=P
Doing all this, I keep reminding myself of one thing...He is holding my hand, guiding me and watching over me. For whatever I do, He is with me. (: Awww...sweetness ttm! (:
Anws, when I went back home, it was raining...and there was wind. Hmmm, I was reminded of how it was like back then in Japan. It was a lil' colder than today's weather. Then I came up with this title for my blog post..."When it gets cold, would you hug me?"
I guess I keep hoping that i'll be attached before I reach 18. But i guess...haha. A bit hard ehh? Cos i'll be turning 18 tmr worhh~ Coooool sia. (:
I just hope that i'll find a guy who will be willing to hug me when i'm feeling cold. Not to mention keeping me warm with your body fats, but with lots of your Love. (:

Love Never Fails.

This is the message from Pastor Eugene Seow...I guess it's so much of a coincidence! Cos the verses and some of the messages he preached can be found in my blog as well as the messages I sent to my friend. I guess maybe God is trying to help me?

*Life is all about LOVE.
*The best way to live life is to LOVE.
1. Life without Love is NOTHING.
- Love is EVERYTHING.
2. Life without Love is ROOTLESS.
- Love is ETERNAL.
3. Life without Love is MEANINGLESS.
- Love is the end marker.
One thing which I feel what's lacking in me is unconditional love. I constantly ask myself why you like this, why you like that, but i haven't really put myself into your shoes. I guess I should have unconditional love for you which i didn't have in the past. All I was thinking about was for you to become a Christian...I just hope that you would be happy. And last thing, don't assume! Cos I keep sending wrong messages! =(
Loving God = loving people. (: & likewise, Loving His people = Loving Him! (:
Relationship between a man and a woman is NOT SATISFIED unless it is founded by God.
Lastly, the best way to love is to be loved. (by God.)
1 John 4:8 "Because God is LOVE."

You have shown me your LOVE again.

Yesterday I was out the whole day! In the morning I went to church, I sent the children off (OMG! Children run here, run there, HARD TO HANDLE!! *Faints!*) then went home, after that meet Joanne to watch The Shock Labyrinth: House of Horrors, 3D. The movie was hahaha! Quite funny at some parts...but quite scary and a bit confusing for me to understand ehh...

Anws, after that I went out with Florence to eat at Kenny Rogers. I knew that something would happen...but I try to convince myself not to think so much cos if I know like everything, then it'll not be a surprise alr...however, still hard sia.

Then at first I was shocked to see Hexi (Hersheys) there. & I didn't really quite enjoy...cos

1. I don't feel the surprise.

2. I don't like the food there.

3. Food there a bit ex ehh...=x

Then after eating, we went to Cold Storage to get Long Island Tea, then we think for a long time then we decided to go to Upper Seletar Reservoir to drink! Then first time sitting in Lina's car, with her driving us, I can't help but admire her! (: But they think I so scared to sit in her car! =x lols...

After that I enjoyed myself more than the dinner.

Although I feel a bit out of place, I just try to smile. (: Don't wanna spoil everything mahh...

Then when I went back, I was super touched by that book which they gave to me! I really cried, thinking back about the times we spent tgt...& I can't help but laugh when I read Lina's & Priya's part! Haha! I guess this was the part which I really enjoy the most.

This is my birthday breakfast from auntie Kat! Kawaii~ But too bad cnt see the ribbon on top!

"I thank God for all of you guys! Love ya!"

Holy Bible.

Like what Florence has said, the bible is the book that teaches people how to live. (: A good one. (:
Sometimes, I just hope that more and more people will understand God's GREATness. & I hope to see more and more people turning to Him, and receiving salvation. Though it's hard, but with God, nothing is impossible! "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13.
You may find it irritating that I always talk about God. But why? Is there any reason why you find it irritating? Is my blog posts about God talking nonsense? No. I personally find that it makes at least some sense. People can actually learn from it if they are willing to open up their hearts. Think about it.

Jeans.

A|X

I Love J-E-A-N-S! :D
Looking at my BFF's blog, i seriously love it so much man! Since I love fashion and love jeans, i'm going to dedicate this blog post to jeans! (:

Hmmm...most of the time, my friends will ALWAYS see me wearing jeans. Haha. Although Singapore is like super duper warm.

Anws, I always believe in quality. Thus, whenever I buy jeans, i'll always go to shops like Levi's or MNG. To people who judge me, they will think that I'm some kind of spendthrift. But it's okays. As long as I know my limits, then it's okays. (:

I always believe in Levi's jeans for their quality. Things with good quality definitely comes with a price which some people will not accept. However, having so many Levi's jeans, the jeans i wear the most should be MNG. The ONLY MNG jeans which I have is grey in colour. "It just fits me like my "second"skin. When i wear it, I feel so good. It just sticks to my lower body like wearing a good quality, well-supported lingerie, making you feel so sexy and comfortable."

MNG Jeans

Levi's jeans are not bad either. The quality is there and it can lasts.

Anws, there are many different types of jeans. When buying jeans, it's always important to try so that you know what cutting and what size fits you.

Now when the weather is so hot and people who love jeans can't take it, they came up with Jeggings like quite long ago. Jeggings = Leggings but thicker and made to look like jeans. One important thing which people who are wearing all the leggings or jeggings out there, you needa wear something which is long enough to cover your butt! This is what we call the fashion rule!

"I'm striving to make myself look awesome with wearing different types of jeans, with different looks and shoes."

"Loving fashion doesn't mean that you definitely will dress nicely."

Bread & Butter

VS

Victoria's Secret (VS)

Sometimes I just love the cool breeze caressing my face.

Had my violin lesson in the morning. Learnt new things today & i just realised violin is not as easy as it seems. This journey is going to be a long, and tough one. But i'm gonna persevere because I wanna play "Flying Free."

In life, not everything will go according to your plans, your wishes. The lesson which we need to learn is how to adapt to the changes accordingly. Be flexible. (:

If everything goes our way, will we learn? No. We come into this world to learn new things, and there are a lot of purposes why we come into this world. It's all up to you whether you know your purposes or not. Different people have different purposes. Nobody is the same. All is unique. Even twins. Just take your time to think  about it.

"Sometimes it's good that we take a few mins to close our eyes to enjoy the quietness and reflect on our life."

"Although I love all the wild & rock things, sometimes the gentleness in me is trying to tell me that it wants some attention too."

You can be HAPPY! (:

Came back a while ago from the 40 DOF meeting with the children. Today we learnt about "YOU CAN BE HAPPY!"

Then today is Xian Ning's birthday! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL~!! & they sang me a birthday song too. Haha.

We saw a video of a guy who has no arms and no legs. But he managed to live until NOW because of JESUS!! You see, if such a person can do such GREAT things, like spreading JESUS's word to the WORLD, so what can YOU as a NORMAL HUMAN BEING with the 4 limbs do? You can DO EVEN GREATER THINGS right? God made us to be the HEAD & NOT the TAIL! Understand?

Anws, I have an inspiration! (:

Hmmm...let me ask you a question. Do you love listening to EMO songs when YOU are feeling EMO?

If the answer is YES, then i guess this post is for you! Hmmm...it's okays to be sad. But the thingy is, LIFE is too SHORT to be SAD! You are the ONLY person who is capable of making YOU, YOURSELF SAD! Understand?! I mean why not get someone to talk to?

Excuse 1: I don't trust anyone.

Excuse 2: I don't have time.

Excuse 3: MY friends have NO TIME.

I guess there is ONE person who is a perfect candidate! You know who? JESUS!!!!!! :D

Most of the time we keep telling this to ourself. I would be HAPPY if i have MORE $$. If i have MORE NICE CLOTHES. If I SMOKE. If I have MORE FRIENDS. Does this ring a bell? I guess this only brings about happiness which doesn't last. & it harms too. Like smoking. But Jesus, our Saviour, He brings us the good news...He has no negative effects, ermmms. He brings permanent happiness to us. So what makes you hesitate? You think about this.

"He died with a broken heart in exchange of our happiness!"

There are 2 sides to everything.

I was walking home in the rain with an umbrella. There are two sides to everything. Just like there is Satan and God. Sometimes when it's raining, my immediate reaction would be "Sian ttm. Later i get myself wet and dirty." But why don't we think it in another way? It's a blessing from God! Anws, there was thunder and lightning. And the chapter which i read ytd came into my mind. Revelation 8. It was abt thunder. It was so chim-tology.

Anws, i'm setting off in like 1/2 hours' time. I'm going to Bukit Batok to help in the children's 40 dof. I guess it's just so ironic. I don't rly like kids or babies because they are like so noisy. However, i'm often with children. I guess I should love them.

Anws, i'm gonna blog again when i come back. Now like no inspiration. Sian.

"I'm not going to let it happen again."

Jesus Is God!

I like this song! (: "Glory."
"Lift up your heads, Let the King of Glory come in!"

Anws, I was listening to Christian song and I wanna share another song called "Your Name High"
Let me highlight some of the lyrics which I find that it applies to my life these past few days.

"Jesus You gave what the world couldn't offer us." He is just so wonderful that I don't know how to describe.
"Say what they want, say what they want." People may gossip about you. Even your best buddies. but Jesus wouldn't do this. So just let them say. *Ignore.*
"Our former ways are breaking." I guess God is slowly helping me to make me grow and depend on Him. & I can sense the change in me. This shows that God is good! (:

Salvation is Here!

Hohoho! I am feeling happy right now, at this moment. Haha.
Hmmm, i came back, wondering whether I should on my lappy to check the Msn mail or just wait till night then i check. Though I am afraid to check the email, but i guess since i have to face it one day, i went to see the email. To my surprise, they allow me to reset my password! :D  Yay! Glory be to God! (:
Btws, otw to Novena, i read the bible again. this time round I read Revelations 8. I was like questioning myself about that chapter. It was just like what the ytd's God's message in fb was saying. Ermmms...something about everyone has to go through a time when they no longer hold on to what they all along believe. but God is waiting for them at the end of the dark tunnel."
Anws, let me talk abt my attachment today...hmmm. I just find that as each day goes by, i learn new things. I am in fact loving my attachment. Every day when i see the patient, i'll give them my brightest smile. Haha. To me, i believe that in this. "If you wanna do something, then give it your best shot. If not, don't even bother doing."
I was like so looking forward to this attachment one month back. The reason being, I know that I can spread God's love to people out there by caring for them. (: 
"God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them." -Hebrews 6:10. (This is how I feel. If you don't like it, then don't continue reading it.) (:


Food for thought:

1. Some people will question me. For example, i scored 4A. Then i everything thank God, thank God. What's the point? It's my own effort mahh. But the thingy is, God created me and make everyone the head and not the tail. & i find that we have to give thanks to everything. Also, without God, i seriously wouldn't become the Xin Ru i am now! So I am grateful to the One who saved ME! (:
2. Another question is, "I am here lying on the bed going through some difficulties. I pray also no use. God also cnt help me!" In my opinion, I guess that praying to God does help in one way. & God put us through all this difficulties to make us grow and depend on Him. Everything He do is for our wellbeing. He created us. So why should he ruin the MASTERPIECE He created?!

"Whoever does not know love, does not know God. Because God is love."- 1 John 4:8.
'"God looks at your heart, and not at your looks."
"We listen to God's word with our hearts."

Happy Lantern Festival!

I guess my prev post i was like talking nonsense? Can you like just erase it from your mind? I was like writing it and thinking whether should i write it...then i fell asleep. Hmmm...anws, these few days i guess i didn't rly rest well cos i was up till 12 plus, and 1plus doing a book for my Jap friend who is like on the plane if i'm not wrong...I'll miss her. Ytd i chiong the book until 1 plus...then today i paste the photos who took tgt, on the mrt otw to yck...but i'm happy she likes it. My effort has not been put to waste! :D
Anws, i was a bit frustrated! Cos my acct was hacked and Msn say they cannot return my password back to me cos I didn't provide enough info. Anws, hope they'll return it back to me. "Come back to me, come back, baby come back to me..."
Hmmm...some latest update! My brother came back form HK and bought me HKHKHKHKHKHKHK!! A lot of Hello Kitty stuff! Kawaii! :D
Then ytd, after having dinner with Suhaila and Yee Ting, there was this guy who is like a bit not that mentally sound, who was making this disgusting sound. So i turned back and looked at him. I WAS LIKE SUPER DUPER SHOCKED cos he was like making that sound at me. OMG. At that instance, i feel so disgusted!!!!!! *Faints*
Ohh ya...then ytd i also did catheterisation. OMG. First, i broke the forcep. Second, I insert the catheter into the vagina!! =X I need more practice!!
Then today, before going to work, i feel like reading the bible. So i just pick one chapter from 1 Corinthians. OMG. I feel that God is speaking to me. I read the whole of Chapter 4. It says something about do not judge people.
Then today, i feel a bit disappointed because of what some people did. "If you really are my friend, then you wouldn't be doing this to me." I mean why gossip? It hurts. Though i don't understand why, but i guess when the day comes, you'll be judged by Christ. If i didn't know God, i wouldn't have become who I am now. (:
I just wanna thank God for helping me to go through all this shit. I don't even judge myself so WHO ARE YOU to judge me?

"I love God."

Sunday Service.

Ytd's sermon is "I thank God for you."
Hmmmm, i have a lot of people to thank actually. Anws, the sermon is abt

1. Motivated by faith, hope and love! (: (This always goes tgt.(: )
2. Marked by fruits of your labour.
3. Maturing in your own character.

When SP asked us to read Colossians 9:8, i went to read Colossians 8:8. I guess the Holy Spirit lead me to it? =x It says: "I am not commanding you, but I want to test the sincerity of your love by comparing it with the earnestness of others."
Do i really love God? I keep telling myself that I can only be complete by finding fullness in Him. I'm trying.

A while ago, i read John 15: 9-16. It's about loving each other. It really struck me by alot alot. I thought about what happened today.
I really dislike people who are friends with you but they just bad mouth you, like to complain about you and all sorts of things. It really gives me a lot of pressure. But I know God is with me. Sometimes we just can't understand why they did that and we can't control it. I'll just ignore you. When that day comes, everyone has to face judgement. We won't get away with it. By hurting others.

Last day.

Just came back from touring Sg with my Jap friend...(:
Tired man...but today was much better cos we came back like earlier...lols. =x
Anws, i got a lot a lot of things to say! I REALLY LOVE TODAY's WORSHIP! My pastor got a Jap translator for me. She went to service last night but still came down specially for us! (:
Then when we reach the place, she choose the seat which is like super in front! At first i feel a bit pressurized cos of some reasons...but after that, I just sing my heart out to God, cry out to Him. I really loved today's worship! I'll write about the sermon some time this week! (:
Then after that, we went to Bras basah. Actual plan was to go to the Mints Toy Museum. But dk how to go. So we went to the National Museum of Singapore. Thank God we FREE admission sia. Lols. Then i took like hundred of pics. Sigh. Gotta find time to upload my pics! (:
Hmmm...after the museum, we were like running out of time. We went to Chinatown as well as Sentosa. Hope she really enjoyed this trip! (:
I find a bit bad cos the Merlion was closed, & i also didn't get to bring her to the Songs of the Sea! But on the other hand, we brought her to many many places! :D I think it's enough right? (:
Then after that we cab-ed home again! Ytd borrow money from her cos run out of cash. Then today ask her for money AGAIN cos the uncle got no small change.
Then i played the violin for her! Haha! I'm like so proud of myself lorhh....just i played twinkle twinkle little star quite nicely! Haha! =P BHB. =P
Anws, tmr i gotta wake up @ 7.30am to send her back to NYP @ 9am. So i got A LOT of time to spare in school man! Then i like got no rest sia! for this whole week and next week i'm like sooooooooooooooooo busy! Only on Thurs then FREE! Then i also have to stay up late to make the book for her! But i guess it's all worth it! (:
Maybe can feedback...next time they should come when we have no attachment! :D Then cn spend more time tgt...(:

Welcome to Singapore! (:

Haha. Hmmm...just came back home after touring Orchard, Little India and Night Safari with them (Flor, Pam, Kayako, Shiori)! (:
We tried the food @ Little India. Not bad! But a lil' too much for us...& too spicy for them! Lols...
Then we did Henna! (: Nice! :D
Last but not least, we went to Night Safari! (: My first time going there! & i feel like a tourist and like more excited than her that i think i neglected her a bit lehh~
Anws, tomorrow i'm going to church with her! :D Then after that we'll be going to the Toy Museum, follow by Chinatown & lastly, SENTOSA! :D
I hope she'll love her stay here in Sg and will love this host (ME)! Hehe!
I wanna write a long, long post! but idk what to write. So, tata~

Never too old to learn.

I viewed the Angiogram today & i got to wear a SCRUB SUIT! :D Anws, the cardiac lab is the only place i think you can get to wear coloured CROCS shoes! & we have to wear the heavy suit to block the rays i think. Too bad i didn't get to take a pic of the scrub suit & didn't get to see the Pacemaker insertion. =(
Anws, OMG! It's a bit bloody. And a bit scary cos if not careful, the radial artery might be pulled out tgt with the sheath or whatever you call that...& it may or WILL result in death. Hmmm...then i also saw the don't know what procedure...with the balloon, and the sucking of blood clots out.
Seeing all this, it reminds me of a few things. 1) Don't smoke which i don't and WILL NOT! 2) Eat lesser fried food! 3) Buy Health Insurance! (:
I've discovered another side of Nursing! (: Nurses are like sooooooooooooo coool! :D We get to specialise in a lot of things! (: & after watching the procedure today, we have to like know how to care for a patient after the angiogram.
Saw my Japanese friend who will be coming to stay with me for 2 days! Saturday & Sunday! :D
I'm so glad that she wanna go church tgt with me! (:
She quite cute ehh....haha. I had a great time chatting with her just now! (:
Looking forward to going out with her! Yes! She's giving me my present tmr! =P Hahaha...
Gonna LET DOWN MY HAIR tmr! :D

Fullness.

Yay! Tomorrow i'm going to view Angiogram in the lab! (:
Shiokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ttm! Don't need to attend to call bells for a few hours plus the good thing is CAN slack in the air-con room! :D Coooooooooooooool man! :D
Haha...can't wait for tomorrow to come. (:
Btws, something BIG happen in the hospital today. I accidentally knocked down a jug of water cos i was distracted! =( then all of a sudden, the machine used tgt with Ventolin suddenly stopped sia. Then i went to see the machine, on and off the switch again. But nothing happen. then i lifted up the machine, only to find water below the machine. So i quickly off the plug cos i scared later the machine explode! =x but the thingy is, the top of the cupboard is wet, plus the bottom of the machine is wet. However, the side of the cupboard is not wet. Hmmm...so am i the one who really caused the spill? because there is like no link.
Anyways, i think i constantly need to remind myself and understand that I can only be complete in finding fullness in Jesus. I should be like Ruth, who was willing to break the Alabaster box on Jesus's legs to honour Him.
Most of the times, we depend on ourselves. Like...we choose to find fullness in others. We constantly find another half to make ourselves complete. Which is wrong! It is easy to find a target to make yourself feel "full". But it is difficult to really find fullness in Jesus. So as people, of course we will choose the easy way out, which is to find people to make ourselves full. But Jesus will definitely fulfill our heart's desires if we obey Him. (:

Out of a sudden.

I suddenly remember what I want for my birthday! Haha.
I want a Hello Kitty Itouch cover! (:
A Hello Kitty puzzle?
A birthday wish from you? (:
A small slice of birthday cake. (:
A celebration with my friends in the hospital! (: Haha! :D That would be the best! :D

If only.

Yesterday i asked God for a dream. But i had a very WEIRD dream. I dreamt that i gave my cousin's gf a tight slap and said this to her: "CHILDISH." & asked my cousin to choose another gf because she is toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo CHILDISH. But i guess it's like not linked to my scenario?
I'll ask God to give me another dream. Hopefully I can get this one right.
Sometimes, I keep wondering if only this, if only that. But...it's meant to be like that. God arranged all this. Sometimes i questioned myself. If  i didn't act aloof one year ago, things wouldn't have turned out like that. Why must we only be friends through the internet?!?!?! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!! I only have myself to blame.
If only...

I really regret what I did one year ago. But I guess we can never return back to the state we used to be.

Cramped.

It's too much for me to digest. I guess I need God's word. It's fate yet not fate. Sigh. It's avoid yet not avoid. What to do?
I guess it's on this same day last year or it's this thursday last yr i did something which i regretted. If only I'd been myself, I wouldn't have lost a friend. Sigh. Believe me, I still think about it. One year has like past so fast.
Anws, let me talk about attachment now. Hmmm...my this CI is super duper good man! She arrange Angiography or Angiogram for us to see! Then can slack liao...in the air-con room! Haha...
Then we cannot serve medications until we have memorised the drug list she gave us. 
Then i did suctioning & observed female catheterisation today.
Last thing of today's post, my Japanese friend emailed me! Yay! She wants to go to a lot of places! Hmmm...so i guess i'll have to spend a lot of time outside home. Can't rest. Attachment is alr killing me! =((
But she's so talented lahh...can play like more instruments than me. But she wants me to play the violin! Ohhh man...gotta brush up my skills liao!

"I thank God for you. (:"

God's Love.

Yesterday after bathing, i sat on the sofa but dosed off. Zzzzzz.....
So i slept for a GOOD 12 hours plus w/o eating my dinner...
Then woke up today morning, I went to pack my toilet. Later i'm going to pack another toilet for my Japanese friend. (:
& this sunday i'm bringing her to church!!! :D
Anws, let me talk about ytd. First day of attachment...i guess God's purpose for ALWAYS putting me in a male cubicle is either A) to not have the prejudice against MALE. or B) to know more guys. =P
Next, I'm to partner some people whom i can't get along. Sigh. I guess it's time i practice God's love. (:

Genesis 1:1

I love this song the most out of the rest of the worship song for the 3 years old! (:

YOU can be H-A-P-P-Y! (:

Today's sermon is about "YOU can be H-A-P-P-Y! (:"
SP Khong said that many people in this world, regardless of race, language, religion, they are ALL seeking for ONE thing. Which is...A HAPPY & MEANINGFUL LIFE! :D
But the sad thing is, not everyone lives a happy & meaningful life.
SP Khong also shared with us the beggar story. Beggar A said to Beggar B, if someone were to give me a 100 bucks, i will not complain in my life ever again! Then one passer-by heard this and thought to himself. "Hmmm...i've never seen someone so contented in my life. If i can make someone happy with 100 bucks, why not?"
So the passer-by gave Beggar A a 100 bucks. Guess what?
Beggar A said: "Geez, i should have asked for a 200 dollar bill instead!"
When SP shared about the 7th time Jesus shed blood, which is from the heart, I thought of someone. Jesus died with a BROKEN heart so that we can exchange our broken hearts for Happiness.
I really don't understand. When someone has hurt you so so much, why do you still bother to stick with a person like that? Because you love him? But Jesus has something better in store for you!
There is this story which my SP shared. A boss asked the employees to go to the gymnasium because someone who has made them unhappy has passed away. So everyone was curious to know who was that person who made them unhappy. They went to the gym, looked at the coffin. To their surprise, what they saw was only a mirror. And all they could see was their reflection.
Thus, there is only 1 person who is capable of making you unhappy. The person is YOU!
So, let us just smile and be happy! The world loves HAPPY people! (:
Are you smiling now? (:

• YES-Continue S-M-I-L-I-N-G.
• NO-What are you waiting for? S-M-I-L-E NOW!

"HAPPINESS begins with God!!!!!!" :D
"Blessed are the pure in heart, for you will see God"-Matthew 5:8

Feeling Young.

During violin lesson, my teacher say she first lesson know that i am a person with a lot of feelings. In other words, i can play the violin well? Cos you need to have a lot of feelings when playing the violin. =P Hahaha...happyhappy. (:

But i realise that i've been playing the violin like an idiot the past one week. The wrong position, and always looking at the violin when I play. And i was so stupid to think that next time i grow up and continue to play the violin, i confirm end up with "dou ji yan" cos i keep looking at the violin which is wrong! So the correct way is to look at the scores and use your feelings to play. Chim-tology.

Then after the violin lesson, walking through the bus interchange, OMG. I have this feeling. I feel like dancing and singing in the middle of the interchange. I think i must be influenced by Step Up 3 and inspired by the song "Club can't handle me." Love it TO THE MAX. (:

I feel so happy today man! I feel like i'm young young young again. Not trying to say i'm old. It's just that i have the young spirit. I feel like learning hip hop, and everything. At least i know WHAT I WANT. NOT LIKE SOME PEOPLE WHO CAN'T BE BOTHERED. At LEAST I'M HAPPY. I will try to ignore people who has been trying to put me down all these years. *IGNORE*

Pack, pack, pack.

In 6 more days, my Japanese friend is coming to my house to stay for 2 days! (:

I spent a few hours packing my room. shall continue again tomorrow...to pack my 2 toilets and the whole of the living room which is filled with my THINGS! Gosh.

Patience.

Otw to Jurong Point to buy sushi and macarons for the children 40 DOF, i read "Lady in Waiting". (:

Hmmm...this time round, i thought of my hao peng you, PAMELA. She always say this to me when i tell her about guys. "Is it really good to have a boyfriend?" Now, I have finally found an answer. Florence also said this to me: "You need to find another half to make yourself complete."

But the thing is, ALL THIS IS ACTUALLY WRONG ACCORDING TO "LADY IN WAITING"

The book says, "Incompleteness is not the result of being single, but of not being full of Jesus...when 2 "incomplete" singles get married, their union will not make them complete...their marriage will be simply 2 "incomplete" people trying to find completeness in one another...only when they understand that their fullness is found in a relationship with Jesus will they ever begin to complement one another...they can never complete one another. You were not created to complete one another, but to complement."

Then today's children 40 DOF is "dare to dream"...like my ytd's post.

YES! I dare to dream...i want to become a great nurse! & a good violinist.

Anws, I'm having my violin lesson tomorrow. Hope to learn things faster! (:

Btws, as i was waiting for the lift, the lift jammed. and i immediately thought of what i've learnt in psychology. the bystander effect. so i thought i should just call the person instead of waiting for others to call. so i guess the people have been freed. Being trapped in a life on Hari Raya Puasa.

"Jesus has plans for me, to give me hope and success." -Jeremiah 29:11.

It's okay.

Went to the 40 Day of Faith meeting feeling unwell. Seen the doctor, was told that it is stomach flu. Head in pain, eyes also in pain. No energy.

So it turns out that stomach flu is different from gastritis.

Gastritis: Inflammation of the gastric.

Stomach Flu: Viral Infection.

During the meeting, Flor's friend said something which hit me. "Don't follow blindly."

I think it's true. If you don't like doing things you don't like, then speak up. Pick up your courage and voice out. I know i have a choice. That's why i chose to step out in faith to become a Christian instead of following my parent's religion.

After the meeting, i walked home, pace slowed down by a lot. Just taking my time to look at my surroundings, the grasses, flowers, and buildings.

It's always during times like these when i start to ponder about things.

I thought about dreams. It's okay to dream. It's our own human rights. No one has the right to stop you. Whether you're young or old, everyone has the right to dream. It doesn't matter how slow or fast you walk. Don't stop and you'll reach your destination someday.

I love exploring this world. It's so amazing. Though i know i don't have the time or money, i will try my best to save up. As long as i don't stop, and i continue to dream, i'll be able to reach my goal someday. I will be able to play Flying Free someday. Many people may put you down. But as long as you ignore them, and try your best, YOU CAN DO IT!

"In everything you do, give thanks."

P.S. He has blessed me richly. My english standard has increased greatly. Amen.

Can you feel it?

Flying Free. (:

Flying Free.

Sigh. Am i not able to forget what has happened in the past? Throughout all these years, i keep thinking about it, trying to find a way to explain it. But was it of any use? I doubt so. God, what to do?

It's true that when one is sad, one will think of all the negative thoughts.

I'm unhappy. Because i'm always dreaming. It never happens. Even if it happens, i'm always the one to ruin it. Why must i behave like that? I really don't know.

Sometimes i just hope to do the things i like. Like dancing, playing the guitar. Since young, i love to dance, sing, act, learn a lot of things. But i wasn't given a chance i guess. I remember when i was in Pri sch, i have a chance to learn the guitar. But my mum said, "Next time you will have the chance to learn it." But the chance never came.

So now, i'm learning the things i like. Like drums and violin. Many people will be like learn for what? Just a waste of time. But it's part of my interest. Nobody understands how i feel. What if i never get to learn it and i die. I really wanna dance, have fun, do the things i like. But i guess i don't need approval from others. I wanna learn how to play "Flying Free." A very nice piece. I yearn to have that kind of freedom.

& sometimes or most of the times, i don't rly treat my friends nice enough. Having being hurt in the past, i just don't know what to do. Have i really put those incidents behind me?

Having: being betrayed, tasted hypocrisy, deprived of friends and suffered pain when i was young. it may seem so common to you. But to me, i don't know. am i hounded by it? I really don't know.

I only know i really miss my grandma.

Today.

Went to Jb today with my friends today...omg. Idk why...but i just seem to have problems with the customs!! Went to Japan, also the same thing. The machine cannot detect my fingerprints. Sian. Went in, came out, also the same thing. Sigh.

Then there was this uncle. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't understand why he love to squeeze me and my friend so much!!!!!! My whole back was like basically being touched by him. He is AN OLD PERV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then after that, came back having stomachache. =( then had diarrhea. =((

Anws, i had a bit of culture shock lehh. Their service was errr....not that good? then i waited for my sushi. the sushi was only like RM 2? & i had to wait for like 15-30mins? So i went out w/o eating that sushi. Then i find that i need to do some reflection. I see those malaysians, just going to City Square they dress until so WAHH. A bit too exaggerating...but it seems that they can dress quite well.

Btws, i watched Step Up 3 @ Jb. The popcorn was nice. ^^...the show is like nice ttm!! & people were like clapping inside the theatre. =.="

Their dance moves, woah. & when they were asked why they dance, i think that if you have something in common as them, you will understand how they feel. (:

I would give the movie 4/5 stars. (:

Then came back to Sg, we ate @ Ajisen. OMG. Idk why, the ppl sitting beside us were like looking at as every 3-5 mins. and the husband is so lame ttm. He said something like, ask them (us) let us try lahh. see if it's nice a not. "=.="

And my friend, OMG! I was soooooooooo shocked sia. She actually talked to the woman when she cnt stand them looking at us. lols.

"Sometimes i just need to stop complaining and comparing."

The story.

Hmmm...i still rmb in the past, whenever Florence wrote bible verses on her fb wall, no matter how touching or how much she wrote, i wouldn't have wrote bible verses on my fb wall.

But since you came, i was somehow inspired and i began writing bible verses on my blog, twitter, and my fb wall. I guess this may be the reason why you entered my life.

God has a plan. In the past, i rmb reading something abt in everything God does, He wants us to grow in faith. I guess you entering my life is a way of God wanting me to step out in faith.

I cannot sleep...and i don't know why.

For you.

I feel so sad after seeing something. If only i could do something to ease your pain. Ohh man. I guess the only thing i can do is to pray. Feel so in pain right now.

Read this!

It's back to Love, love, love. I really need to post this man!

Now, whoever's reading this, USE YOUR HEART TO READ THIS okay?!

In love, you can say that there are norms or there are no norms. What do i mean by that?

Let me elaborate. When a guy loves a girl, it's naturally that a guy will do what is appropriate to make a girl happy. (provided it's reasonable.)

Then when it comes to no norms, maybe some guys will text the girl first thing in the morning. But i find that it doesn't apply to all guys right? It doesn't mean that the guy don't text you means the guy don't love you?

Sometimes when i read people's status on fb, msn or blogs, i find it a bit exasperating! What i mean is, everybody is like looking for LOVE. Instead of looking for God, which is Love, they are looking for something which is so hard to find. Love. God is in a place which is so so so near you!!!!!! Just say the Sinner's prayer, you can get LOVE. Isn't it amazing and like easier? God IS Love. If you really want something, ask God for it. Sincerely. If it's really good for you, God will give it to you! If God doesn't give it to you, sometimes it's because God wants the BEST for you! That's why he's molding you!

Last part: Why Christians choose Christians.

1. We, being Christians, have an idea as to how Christians should behave. Therefore, when we pick Christians and not the other religions, we have a rough idea as to how Chriatians will behave.
2. We Christians have a kinship with all the others who believe, and from that bond of faith and love, a mutual strength receive. -Hess.

Hurry Hurry.

The correct way of holding it. (:

My new Bebe perfume. Nice ttm! (:

Frozen fruits...looks like snow has covered it...

What a feast! But my Dad doesn't want a cake! Bro and Gf. (:

My Mum's masterpiece. (:

Yay! (:

Last paper is over! I'm going to JB tmr with Joanne and YeeTing. (: My 2nd trip overseas but first time to Malaysia.

Anws, while reading through Social Psychology, there's this Mere Exposure i think. Then it says that when you are often exposed to that person, you will tend to increase your likeness you have for that person. Hmmm...will it work for me? =x

Anws, i had my FIRST Violin lesson on Sat! Woohoohoohoo...

Then on Sat, my whole family & my bro's gf came to celebrate my Dad's birthday! :D

I'm proud of myself man...although my teacher didn't teach me the fingerings, i know how to play Twinkle Twinkle Little Star! :D HappyHappy! (:

Anws, my attachment is starting next week. Japanese friend is coming to my house to stay for 2 days next next week. My birthday on a tuesdays on next next next week. (:

Then one month later, I'm going to USS with my BFF! Woots! ^^...

Last thing...i wanna thank God man! I'm now NOT ON ANY MEDICATIONS :D except for the Retin cream for my face and the moisturiser which was on advertisement...the PHYSIOGEL.

Dreams.

Today i went out to celebrate Pam's birthday! (:

We went to Fish & Co. Original plan was that we have a picnic at Marina Barrage. Me and Florence spent like a lot of effort and time. But due to some things, sian ttm. Cancelled. Sad and angry. But anws, Pam still had fun so yea i guess it's okay.

Sometimes i wonder why can't all the people in this world be like God. So that we won't have fights, quarrels, and unhappiness. Sigh. But i guess all this is part of God's plan. (:

Then after that, me and Flor we went to Plaza Sing. I wanted to get the cloth for my room's drawer...but i couldn't find it!! then i went to Daiso to buy a lot of things...the boxes, roller and the absorb moisture thingy. Daiso is becoming my fav shoppe! (: Haha...

Before that, i went to this Christian bookstore and i bought a book. Lady in Waiting. I long to have a companion...but i guess God will let me meet my Mr Right when the time is right. He'll mould me into the Mrs Right for my Mr Right. This book should be about as I am waiting for my Mr Right, God will mould you to become the Mrs Right for your Mr Right. I thought about this today. True Love. So meaning to say, there is fake love? =x The answer is NO!! If it's meant to fake, then it is NOT love. Therefore, there is NO such thing as true love nor fake love because LOVE IS LOVE! Get it? Love is a thing which many people are struggling with. Many people find love. They actually love to seek Love. But God is our love! People just want to get a companion by just going steady with some people they think they love. But do they know what is love? Many a times, in our search of Love, we are blinded by their appearances, behaviour for the first few outings. Then in the end, we realise that we fall for the wrong person. The best thing to do, is to wait for God's plan cos God will NEVER give us something which is NOT suitable for us! & seek God because He is EVERYTHING you need! He is sooooooooooo good than any of the man out there. Because some people can't see or touch Him, they tend to find that they are seeking someone/something which is so out of their reach. But i guess...if you really love someone, you wouldn't mind? =x But the fact is, though you can't see Him, but HE IS ALWAYS WITH US WHEN YOU NEED HIM!! :D

Putting aside the BGR topic, i'll begin with friends. Hmmm...sometimes i feel that i really hate them TO THE MAX!!!!!! But as what Pam has said, we need to ask God to give us His love to love others instead of loving them with our love because by then i will be too exhausted and i find that i have more hatred than love for them. I have to change the way i look at them. BECAUSE I AM PREJUDICED AGAINST THEM SO I ACT ACCORDING TO THE WAY I THINK. Therefore, i can only love them by changing the way i think! (:

In 1 Peter 4:11a it says: "If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ."

God loved us so much that He gave His one and only Son. Therefore, i should love them. I read from somewhere...it says when you have overflowing love, you will have no choice but to give away your love to others. How i hope i can have that kind of overflowing love so that i can love a lot of people, to prevent conflict!!!!!!

"If you want to practice love, practice it with the people around you before you proceed on to strangers."-Heidi Koh Xin Ru. (:

"For we know how dearly God loves us, because He has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with Love."-Romans 5:5.