God's wonderful plan?

hmmm...saw some things, read through some things.
Now i'm wondering whether it's part of God's wonderful plan? Cos this doesn't seem wonderful to me. it hurts. seriously. but...maybe God wants me to know that he's just not suitable for me? So that @ least i'm hurt now than hurt later?
SIGH...sometimes i wonder why God wants me to suffer all these pain. WHY? is God trying to test me? People keep telling me that the pain will go off, that i will pull through. but SIGH...is it true? i hope this will rly go off like soon. i mean SOON!!!

The day of change.

i enjoyed Trina's tutorial...OMG. it's just soooooooooo motivational and inspiring! after hearing what she has said, i feel like crying man...she is such a good speaker. i think that i should start planning for my future...
after her tutorial, i was supposed to have grp meeting...but 3 of my members not here, then i need to go to e plaza to set up the connection. sigh...but the person not there...so have to go again tmr. then when we were in the e plaza, we talked after some things...which rly made me unhappy. but what can i do? i have to accept reality. SIGH.
After trying for so long still cnt connect, me, Suhaila, Pamela, and Wan, we decided to go to 313 Somerset...to look @ shoes cos Suhaila wanna buy new shoes. (: then on the train, i kept thinking about what we talked about in the e plaza...i think what Pam has said was correct. i know where my probs lie...but it's just that i refuse to accept reality.
then when we've reached 313 Somerset, Pam & I eat Yami Yogurt! Hehe...thanks to Pam i fell in love with eating Yami Yogurt! Haha...4 more stamps to my free Yami Yogurt. =x lols...then we sat down for a while then Pam has to go off...so i had a chat with Suhaila & Wan...it was a nice chat. i rly wanna thank the both of them for listening to me and sharing their experiences with me...
Hmmm...aftert the chat, otw to HMV, i suddenly have this feeling...i hated myself for constantly thinking about it over the past few months. i should stop thinking about it everytime cos the world doesn't revolve around you! Why am i constantly thinking about you?!?!?! FML man!!!
SIGH. then when i was on the train, i thought about this matter. & i've come to a conclusion! I should rly STOP thinking about you. i should focus on God! & i should start being myself!

Love is not as simple as how it is spelled out.

watching drama serials on youtube, sigh...i'm wondering whether true love exists on earth?
SIGH. when will i find my another half? drama serials always have a good ending...like how ppl always end up tgt, happy ever after and so on...but is it real? maybe the time for me hasn't come yet...idk. i just hope i won't end up alone. that's the worst thing man.
just hope that God will prepare me to be ready for him. (:

a day filled with all my fav food! (:

my fav fried rice! ^^...

my fav Esprit! (L)!

Charlie's Honest Quencher, Old fashioned BlackCurrant Lemonade! (:

today, took the circle line then change to the green line to go to my church...however, i was late man! =x i thought i will be there like early to help my friend's sis book seats. but in the end she was the one who helped me book seats. =.=

then during the service, i keep yawning man. ytd was overproduction of mucus...today is overproduction of tears. i keep yawning cos of lack of oxygen...so i kept tearing.

anws, everytime during church, & worshipping esp, i always have tt "touched" feeling...always wanna cry. it's sooooooooo overwhelming...so powerful. God is just so powerful. (:

during the service, SP Lawrence Khong said something abt forgiveness. I think i've to forgive people man. He said that there's a phrase in chinese which means hate till you die. but it's not true. cos when u hate a person, you will die first. this is because, when you refuse to forgive a person, everytime when you think abt the person, u'll think of how tt person has hurt you. so u will be sooooooooooooo bitter that you die first. cos when you hate the person, u'll feel tt bitterness, not tt person.

after service, i went to buy my fav fried rice! :D hehehe...then head to coffee bean! wanted to buy DC...but saw my fav Esprit!!!!!! so i got that instead! (: but one uncle cut my queue man...looked @ me then cut my queue. =.=" but nvm...he's old anws.

after i've finished buying my drink, was running late for the 40 DOF training. so i ran on the road with Kimberly...lols. hmmm...then reached there @ like 1.35pm i think...waited for Florence to finish her fried rice then we head into Max Pavilion.

During the training, Pastor said it's a 6 weeks thingy. Sigh...@ first i didn't want to go cos i'm not tt confident whether i can find friends to join my grp. =( but since my friends are going, then i also go lorhh...so now, since i've signed up, i must try my best to find friends to join my grp. Have Faith! (:

i've gotta start praying!!!!!!

falling sick.

Sigh sigh sigh...since ytd night, i've been having some over production of mucus...until today still not okays. Hope it gets well like A.S.A.P? =x
Anws, i'm going to Expo for service!!! Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!!! :D can get to eat their fried rice liao...hehehe. rly miss having service @ Expo...& miss having fried rice.
Hmmm...hope tmr will be a better day! (:

Quote of the day! "God will never give you things which you can't handle. Stay Strong!"

Afternoon gone just liddat.

what an interesting pic! rly for a Starbucks addict! hahaha...

In the morning, i came upon an Aust blog...& i find it super duper nice!! So I spent like my whole afternoon finding pictures, and thinking about how to beautify my blog cos i'm like so inspired by tt Aust blog. but i'm like only 3/4 done? But i think i'm going to rest...my eyes are like glued to the com screen for sooooooooooooooooo long.

Anws, when i wake up today, i have an urge to drink coffee man...Starbucks! But Sun Plaza only have Coffee Bean. Then wanted to go Sun Plaza grab a cup of DB...but too engrossed in this blog thingy and it's raining...so i cn only stay @ home. but @ least i ate Toblerone! :D but i only bought one bar of Toblerone from Japan...& i don't think it's available in Sg. So, poof! the bar of Toblerone gone.

Now...i'm thinking about drinking Starbucks in America! =x

During my chalet, my friend told me tt there's this America trip coming up man! i wanna go soooooooo much! but it's 4k...i hope the school is rly going to organise this trip! I still rmb @ tt time, i was like 4k only what! but now, sigh...part of my money is gone cos i had to buy some rly impt stuff. hmmm...so now, i still needa consider about this trip. Hope God will help me! (:

Pyramid! :D

Almost Love! (:

Broke.

today went out with Sheila to Orchard cos she wanted to get a M.A.C brush! :D
after getting the M.A.C brush, we went to Far East Plaza to send my Burberry bag for cleaning. and it's like 80 bucks gone like that!!! =(((
then we talked about some stuff...and we almost quarrelled. but phew...i'm soooooo surprised by the change in me. as in, i didn't fight back. if it's the past me, i confirm quarrel with her one. =x but thank God i didn't.
then we went to Ion window shop...went to Armani Exchange, CK, Warehouse...SIGH. it's been a long long time since i've shopped @ AX, and buy all the branded stuff!! How i wish i can quickly get back my money so that i can shop there!!! SIGH. But nvm...i shall learn how to save during this period when i'm in a financial crisis.
Life is just so funny lahh srsly...when i have money but nothing to buy, i'll go shopping and die die must buy something...won't save up the money. but now, sigh. i bought a new camera, new laptop cos it died on me...then now the Burberry bag, the textbooks...next, my next visit to the specialist!! ARGHHHH!! How to shop like that? Sigh...money is gone just like that. Really nothing to say. SO, ALWAYS SAVE FOR RAINY DAYS!!!!!!

First post.

Hmmm...this is the fourth time i'm re-opening my blog. =x

Today i was late for lecture!! ><
Luckily my bro woke me up by asking me what time my lecture starts...and when i looked at the clock, it was 8 am...and my lecture starts @ 8am!! Then at ard 8.10am, i quickly wash up then pack my things cos i decided to rush to school to attend the lecture.
Then i tapped my card @ 9.12am...but at the end of the lecture, when the teacher marked the names of the students who didnt bring their cards, she didn't click on my name! Then cos of this, i was "absent" for 2 lessons instead of only one. Sigh.

After the lecture, my subgrp went to have breakfast @ KFC...then saw wan and his attachment friends. Then talk talk for a while, we went back to sch to do our group project. (:
But sigh...i couldn't connect to the school's network!! =( so cnt use internet =( so i went to find some books. Then adeline acc me go find books...but she soooooo suey accidentally kicked on the wheels of the trolley then her nail crack. =( but luckily nvr bleed.

Hmmm...then after that went for lecture...SIGH. it's always liddat one. WHY, WHY, WHY!!!!!!
Why everytime when it's lecture, i always think think think think think!! It's the same prob again sia...sooooooooooooo crappy!! Although i'm halfway through forgetting...but the thingy is, i always never focus one. What i need to do now, like ASAP, is to listen to my cellgroup leader. Don't look left, don't look right, just FOCUS on God. I always focus on OTHER ppl...then cos i don't know the reason, i will just anyhow think of a reason. No wonder my mood is always like shit! Now what i need to do is, when i don't know the reason, A. ASK. or B. STOP GUESSING.
Anws, since it's like alr over over over, why should i give a damn about it?!
Btws, just now watched a channel 8 show and it says "it takes a lifetime to build a friendship, but a second to destroy it."
sigh...seriously, i rly don't know how to face you. how i wish i could smile at you when i look at you just like how i look at the others.