Utmost Importance.

Yesterday i talked to one of my patients. She is a good speaker. & she has taught me a few things. She educated me about her condition.

Also, she told me something that has really struck me. To her, everyone needs attention. Therefore, when a patient keeps on pressing the call bell, the hidden msg is that they need attention. Thus, as nurses, what we can do is to show them attention. As humans, we will definitely find it annoying and that we don't have enough time to ans the call bell. If the patient don't need attention, do you think the patient will press the call bell?

Sometimes the patient press the call bell to ask us to help with very trivial things. To us, we might think that it is lame that they have to call us just to throw away something. But to them, it may mean a lot a lot, according to my patient. She also said that being in the helping line, our pockets will never be filled with money. BUT OUR HEARTS WILL BE FILLED FOREVER. Unlike in the other lines, you can earn a lot selling products. Your pockets will be filled...but will your hearts be filled?

She said that many a times, people tend to look on the surface. But seriously, as nurses, we can't just look at the surface. We have to look in depth.

To the public, nurses clean shit clean shit clean shit. but in actual fact, not all the nurses clean shit. & we don't clean shit 24 /7. Why are parents telling their children not to become nurses but doctors can? Why are their parents so ignorant? doctors help people. then nurses? kill people is it?!?!

Nurses can be considered the one of the few important people. They do almost everything. Nurses educate people, counsel people, have to understand how people feel & why they react in this way (the relatives and the patients, according to my pt.), take care of people, & we do many many other things. But the pay is...but our hearts get filled. With Love.

The last thing she said to me was that i've questioned myself about quitting nursing. but she told me that i can do it cos she has seen the way i treat my patients. i guess...i'll see how it goes.

Lalala.

All the tears i shed today. I hope it helps. Sometimes i really wonder whether i should be in Nursing or not. Having this thought again. Sometimes i just feel so sad and pity my patients that i get rather emotional. I don't understand why some people like to bring me down. I am so hurt. Today one of my friend asked me..."why do you want to become a nurse?" I told her "Passion." She said "Sure anot?" I guess...i don't know why she doubt me. But i rather not know the ans because i know i cnt take it. Right now i just hope God will bless me with strength and courage to carry on with Nursing.

Everything happens for a reason. Because God wants us to increase our faith.

Lesson learnt: 1) Don't be too emotional. 2) If you are right, persevere and never get knocked down by people whom they think that you are wrong or doubt you.

"God put us in this darkened world to shine as sons of light, so let us always teach the truth and keep our colours bright." -D. De Haan.

Food.

I wanna eat:

1. Seaweed
2. Popiah
3. Corn
4. Subway Egg Mayo
5. Sesame Paste
6. Daim
7. Yam cake

"God will satisfy your needs."

Everyone needs a lil' bit of Love at least.

I can sense something. Today is a day where there are many opportunities for me. But...i didn't grab the opportunities! ZZZ...

God placed him right in front of me for like countless times man. But...i was busy talking and talking that i didn't say hi. There are many excuses or what ifs i can come up with. Shy? Busy talking? Or what if he don't remember me? I guess God will really come up with the best plan if something is really going to happen.

I'll just see how it goes next week.

Anws, i've srsly cut down on my shopping! But i'm still broke, broke, broke thanks to my stomach. Nowadays i feel so hungry easily. So i'm spending my entire fortune on FOOD. Cravings! I feel like eating corn, Daim, kueh, popiah, naked fish!

"God will never forsake you."

It's Thursday.

It has been a few days. Hmmm...don't really feel like coming online. A few things have happened in the past few days. Had a fair share of good and bad things.

Anws, tomorrow i'm going for another home visit. (:

"God bless you"

There is always a first time to everything.

It happened. Today when i was with a patient, a thought struck me. I feel like giving up on Nursing and opt for another course instead. I just find that what i say & think is different from what i do. I just find that i'm sick and tired of smelling shit and clearing urine. & i just find that i'm not a patient person. I do for the sake of doing. Do i really think? I can't feel the love i have for my patients. I need to find that passion back. But too bad i can't leave the course cos i'm bonded! A good way to tie me down.

Anws, here's a song to describe how i feel i guess.

"The Climb"

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming, but
There's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it
Every step I'm takin'
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin'
But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most
I've just gotta keep goin', and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on movin'
Keep climbin'
Keep faith baby
It's all about, it's all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

"Don't lose the faith."

What's Up. What's down? What's left, What's right?

Hohoho...i'm back to blog again! Miss me? Haha.

Anws, my flag day was a success i guess? Cos my tin was like heavy and there's a few 10 bucks! TCS flag day is the first flag day which i have collected the most! Thank God! (:

There was a lady who was so good man. I told her the money can be used to help the children, youths, and the elderly. Then she took out a small purse full of coins and donated every single coin! :D

Then after that went for my drums lesson. After the 30 mins lesson, my teacher talked to me about Nursing! Hahaha...and we talked for like 30 mins. First time i talked so much to him sia. lols.

Hmmm...then later went to Limited Edt to get a pair of Nike sb low dunk-Eric Koston shoes for my Bro's 21st Birthday! :D & i also bought a pair of crocs shoes for attachment cos my Rubi shoes are tight that my toes are shouting for help! =/ lols.

I wanna get this!!! :D Hello Kitty! (:

Tmr is the day man! Finally! I meant finally!! I can worship Him loudly! Hallelujah. Then aft tt going for PPP! ^^!

Btws, one last thing! I love my BFF's blog! The kinda fashion bloggy i want! www.avant-garde.onsugar.com

"Be slow to judge others. But be quick to judge yourself."

Back.

I'm finally blogging. Wanted to blog ytd. But was tooooooooo lazy! =P

Anws, i've made new friends! (: My friends during my shift are like sooooooo cool. Hahaha...have a fun time with them! (:

Then today i working morning...so when it's time to go home, we stayed back for the fire drill. Hahaha...although it was like FREAKING hot, there is FREE DELIFRANCE & Water...but i only ate 1 Croissant. (:

Then tmr working afternn...& my legs are sooooo fragile tt it's gonnna break any minute! =x lols...

"When it's time to let go, just let go."

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Saw you twice today. Ate 2 subway cookies today. Bought 2 packets of seaweed. Bought a pair of shoes.

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You need another half to make yourself perfect.

Blessed.

Today is the first home visit. Hmmm...at the beginning, i wasn't like rly prepared. Then after seeing the children, i didn't rly know that we will have a good time tgt! Hahaha...(:

When i was teaching the youngest child, i was like in a bit of difficulty because i wasn't rly sure how much she understands and that i couldn't explain in simple chinese so i have to use a lot of actions. Then after the teachings, i played games with the children. We played Ben Ten Uno and Checkers. They were so noisy but they were funny and also they are willing to listen to me when i talk...& children are like the most innocent...happy go lucky.

Then when we were about to go, OMG! That's the best part! They were like "Bye bye Xin Ru jiejie..." & one girl asked me and her mum whether we're coming back again next week. I felt so blessed....it's so G-R-E-A-T to be loved by so many ppl. Then when we were waiting for the lift, they stood outside the door, saying "Bye bye Xin Ru jiejie" constantly...then i gave them a hug! It was so sweet! Love it! (:

Then when we enter the lift, they ran to the closed door to bade us goodbye and to say the same thing again.

After that, when we were having our debrief @ the ground floor, they rushed down and said the same thing again! Hahaha...they are srsly SO CUTE TTM can?! :D Then we exchanged numbers and i gave them my msn contact. Rly hope we'll keep in touch! ^^! (:

Lastly, is it God's calling for me to lead a children cell group? (:

"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father." -Matthew 5:16.

Last Minute.

Suddenly, Suhaila told me that the stats did wrongly.

Then the whole grp suddenly all come tgt to do the project. Thank God we managed to correct the errors. Heng ahh~!

But sian ttm...i missed ytd's QT!!

Anws, today i'm going for home visit! (: To bring light to the house! :D Hahaha...then on Sat is my last day in GKidz TCT. Shifting to Expo! A bit sad...but nvm....cos for the whole month, I CAN ATTEND SERVICE! Yay!!! :D Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y!!! :D

Can worship God loudly...and cn have the Lord Supper! (:

So Excited! ^^! (:

"Rejoice in the Lord."

Mummy.

Anws, i must rly Thank God for my mum! Although she don't like spaghetti, but she still buys it and is going to cook it for me! (:

I must rly learn how to love her and must treasure her more! ^^! (:

A Question For You.

How do you define a good friend/best friend?

Thoughts.

Went out to celebrate Florence's birthday! (:

Watched Eclipse...nice movie. (:

Anws, i went into the EMO mode again. I rly dk what's GOING ON in my life man! Maybe too used to all that EMO-ness? Rly dk lahh! Maybe because it's not going acc to plan so i was like a bit too unhappy? But sometimes i'm too tired to try to entertain others.

Sometimes i rly wonder. I'm always the odd one out. Too tall. Too emotional. Too soft. Too lame. Too much of nonsense?

But i told myself i shouldn't be like that because we're celebrating Florence's birthday and that i cnt ruin it like what i did to Adeline's birthday.

But i guess talking to Florence does help a lil.

But the best thing to do is learn how to adapt constantly. Because in life i'll meet with all sorts of people who are worst than that. Don't take it too personal. & the thing is, Don't freaking ASSUME.

Thank God i'm going to Orchard on Sunday AGAIN! Must rly get all the necessary things which i need to buy! Birthday pressies! Shoes for attachment. Do an exchange.

Anws, i dreamt again. My dream is about climbing up a very short flight of stairs. But i am too tired...totally exhausted. & my knees were scratched. I literally have to CLIMB/CRAWL and not walk up the super short flight of stairs. Is God asking me to pray for strength? Which i need...to fight all these things which are bringing me down.

:D

Chiong-ing my stats blog until my eyes couldn't take it anymore. Then after chiong-ing, i'm finally enjoying my Haagen Dazs Caramel Biscuit & Cream! ^^! (:

Anws, i bought a new bible today! :D & i love it sooooooooo much! (:

I've still a long way to go to becoming a better person. i'll work hard! (:

Gotta change that habit of being a B-I-G mouth.

Dreams.

nowadays i've been having too many weird dreams. but i guess it's a way of God communicating to me? I dreamt of Genesis & Peter 3 today in the morning. When i read the verse, it's abt Peace. Is God answering my prayers?
Anws, i've gotta Thank God for helping me to overcome the problem. After talking it out, i think the matter is solved. Now my friendship with her is strengthened. I seriously hope that THERE WILL NOT BE A RECURRENCE.
Now i know who genuinely cares for me. (:
Despite showing atitude, she hasn't like given up on me...but she'll ask me what happen cos she rly cares, and that she rly wants us to remain as good friends. But when the person is like ignoring you, or just having the "heck care" attitude, it just shows that the person don't rly care abt you? and that you are just a normal friend.
P.S. The glass wall has been removed!

People may judged you. But just ignore them.

"Let Peace be with you."

A penny for your thought.

I've gotta constantly remind myself that i am special. Everyone is this world is unique. Comparing sucks ttm. Comparing will only kill. A sense of insecurity.Evil.

Most of the times, people can only see the goodness in others. But they've failed to see the goodness in themselves.

"Trust in the Lord and everything will be fine."

"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul (Psalm 143:8)."

"You will know the truth, and the truth will set you free (John 8:32). Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long (Psalm 25:4-5)."

Problematic.

Enjoying my Haagen Dazs right now. Need it like terribly.

It's not gonna help even if i say it out. Because the problem lies in me. So no matter what i do, it's still wrong.

Life is always full of problems. Once you've solved a problem, here comes another one.

This is life...there're bound to be clashes whenever we go. But can i survive it this time round?

I really don't like it! Why must it always affect our friendship?!?!

I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT!!!!!!

It is happening to me. You don't understand how i feel. I really hate my life.

it's always easy to say say say say say! But when it comes to you, you won't know how to face it.

There won't be a PERFECT solution. There is soooooooooooooooooooo much of unhappiness in me! I really wanna vent it out! Arghhhhhh! I'm affecting others. But what can i do?

"I need Peace."

Out.

Today i went out with Suhaila after school to have Swensen's @ Northpoint. But was kinda disappointed...cos of something. Anws, the best fish & chips i've tried is at naked fish. I don't rly like the Swensen's one...it's crispy. But the fish is not that soft.

Then came back home, so tired that i fell asleep on the sofa. Then woke up, thought about some things. I just don't know know why, it's affected me. I just hope that it won't affect the both of us.

"Say a prayer."

Affected by it.

I shall NOT be bothered by what i've seen or heard. I've always been affected by it. Why is that so? Argh! I just hate this feeling. Hope everything will be fine. But not seeing it or not hearing it will it rly solve the prob? Nopes. I've gotta face it and not avoid it.

God, give me the courage. Amen.

It's Sunday!

Went for work today in the morning...& finally...FINALLY! I get to see him! Thank God! (:

Anws, next week is the last week i'm working in Expo...& i can finally attend service! Thank God.

Btws, in 14 days' time, it's going to be my time for attachment...in TTSH. So looking forward to it! (:

In everything we do, we have to Thank God. No matter what happens to us, it's actually God's plan for us to become more faithful to Him. Amen.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." -Philippians 4:13

Memory verse

"I have been crucified with Christ and i no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." -Galatians 2:20

More movies!

Watched Karate Kid in the morning! It was a nice movie! Awesome! :D

I wanna watch more movies...Despicable Me, & HAUNTED CHANGI! Hehehe...Haunted Changi seems creepy and extremely scary...but i wanna watch! :D

Anws, most prob our group is going to Old Changi Hospital! Hope everything will be fine after our trip there...

Anws, tomorrow is Florence's Birthday! (: