Family Vacation.

 Until now, I still don't have a chance to go on a holiday with my family!

Hmmm, I think it's the start of this year that I realise that it's very important that I spent time with my family. & I yearn to spend time together as a whole family. Thus, I set a goal to have at least 6 family gathering. But I've only had 4 this year. Still got 2 more to go. Anws, after attending women's post encounter, and hearing the pastor say that she has finally brought her parents on a vacation, I was inspired(?)! I wanna bring my parents on a vacation! :D

I asked my dad which country he wanna go...then he said he lazy to travel overseas. So he suggested Sentosa! Sooooo cute sia. Hmmm, so I thought to myself...family vacation doesn't necessary mean have to travel overseas! So, i'm actually thinking of bringing them to Sentosa's Siloso Beach Resort. (:

I guess it's part of God's plan? (: To bring my family closer. (: Then He can use me to do His work in this family. (:

Trust.

Most of the time though I don't know why God put me in certain situations, but I truly believe that He did all these because He loves me.
Through a lot of things, I think that God is telling me to trust Him. I tried and I am trying. I trust in Him for my Mental Health project & He has blessed my group with good teamwork and a good grade! Praise Him! (:
Anws, I got this super cute picture about the baby and about God. The verse says that "Sometimes we felt God's playing a joke on us...But if He didn't, we wouldn't learn how to walk." -Isaiah 55:8-9.
In the past, the same thing has happened to me like a lot of things but I never seem to learn from it. However, it became so strong this year, & I finally couldn't take it. & He came to my rescue.
So, if God didn't put me through all this, I wouldn't have learn to depend on Him & trust in Him.
Therefore, in order to avoid any heartbreaks, always listen to God.
Lastly, always do a motive check! If you can do some things for a brother but not a sister (vice versa), then are your motives clear?

I'll never find a friend like God.

EAT.

Wanted to eat my favourite PINK colour kueh without using my hands...so i tried to shift the kueh by "tossing" the kueh indirectly with the box. But I used tooooo much force! Then the kueh just dived str8 into my RED BAGGU bagggggg!! But it looked funny anws. Haha! But I still used my hands in the end. =.="

Anws, now i'm gg to talk about LAKSA! =D

Craving for Laksa again...hmmm, I wanna rec EAT's Laksa! (: It's 4.50 but it's nice! (:

Anws, next time I wanna try Wang's Cafe's laksa. (:

One day I shall go on a food hunt in Singapore ALONE! (:

It seems pretty lonely but I guess it's the best choice? Cos it's gonna be expensive...and friends might not acc me. Some more need to wait here, wait there, then might not have the same taste.

I also wanna explore Singapore and go around Singapore taking pictures using a Polaroid (Y) or Holga (Y)?

But SIGH, more money again!

SAVE SAVE SAVE!

Although I'm sponsored, but it doesn't mean I'm RICHRICHRICHRICHRICHRICH.

Shopaholic!

*Yawn*
Feeling pretty boreddddddddd! =((
Went to Orchard with Pam and Derrick today after school. & I bought a RED bag called BAGGU! (: Love this bag a lot...wanted to get it like in the past but i didn't...i think tt time cos broke liao. =x then me and Pam shared to buy a set of 3 tank tops for 49 only! 100% Egyptian Cotton and something Paris dk what...
Anws, I'm forever shopping ahhhhh. I've spent like 10,000 these few years just by shopping alone. Awesome? =x Sigh. How nice would it be if I have these money now.

PERFECT.

Been having nightmares for the past few nights. Hope to have sweet dreams today. (:
Anws, I was kinda pissed when I saw my friend's friends' comments on fb. If he don't believe in God, he doesn't have the right to criticise God!
I just find that it's pretty difficult for pre-believers to understand how great a God He is!
God has helped me a lot a lot. The fact is, MAN DISAPPOINTS! But God doesn't!!!!!!
Humans are selfish after all. God has helped His children a lot. But we, being His children, some don't even thank God for all the help. But does God complain? No? This is the reason why many people believe in God!
He is just so wonderful and GREAT! He's really the LIGHT! Only His love is flawless.

What have I learnt?

Went for the Women's Post Encounter today afternn...the title is "Restoring our Self-Image."
Women are made out of Ivory and is twice refined. (:
The Satan has been trying to exploit women in the wrong way. For eg, for prostitution, models, car models, and everything. Satan is trying to use women in the wrong way because God is trying to help women to rise up and become Women of Worth! (:
When Ps Angela asked us to find a partner and pray for each other, my partner released a word from God to me. Trust. This word...What is God trying to tell me? That I can start to trust others? Or I should trust in Him more?
During the post encounter, I've come up with this: How to be happy! (:

1. To give thanks for everything.
2. To pray to Him on a daily basis and listen to Him.
3. To set your eyes on Him.
4. Ignore what others say about you.
5. Reject the negative things in Jesus Christ's name! (:

The Stand.

Although Ps D.K's message is a bit short, but the message somehow can reach me.

He asked this question..."Will you stand up for God?"

He also said about "Where you stand depends on where you sit."

Like reaching out to the people in your school. I hope to reach out to more of my friends.

Then Ps D.K also mention that "If you don't stand up for something, you'll fall for anything."

If we don't stand up for God today, we will fall into Satan's trap one day.

Lastly, don't be a Christian in name only! Since I became a Christian, I will attend cell on every Friday, go for different events organised by my church, then serve in the David's Club in FCBC, and attend Sunday Service. Seems busy right? Then when I see some Christians like so freeeeeeee where they can go out like almost everyday, or when they speak, you will hear all sorts of vulgarities comin' out of their mouths. & in my mind, I will think "Are you a Christian?" Sometimes it's because of these ppl that distort the image of Christians. Sigh.

So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth. -Revelations 3:16.

"Before we decide to stand up for God, Jesus stood up for us first."

See how junk my life is?

After the Teens Excite ytd (A service for 13-17yrs old), I went to Fairprice to get some junk food. Nowadays i'm always seen eating junk food. I bought like 5-6 packets of tidbits. Maybe it's because i'm forever hungry. Haha. & they are oishi but they lack nutrition. 

Then otw home on the bus, I thought of this blog title. "See how junk my life is?" I find this title pretty interesting. I've bought a lot of "junk" food...& i'm going to talk about my life.

While attending the service, I am filled with joy. By God's grace, I AM SAVED. I have seen the change in me. A wonderful, and beautiful one. I reflect on my life and asked myself this question. "What would happen if I didn't accept Christ last year at Christmas Stomp?"

I guess I would still be a "dead" person. I will still be living in darkness. I wouldn't have known my pastor, my beloved cell sisters, and my primary sch friend.

When I first said the Sinner's prayer, I know that I want to be a more happy person. But I didn't know how. But now, 11 months have gone by, I have a better understanding. God chose me! (: He opened my eyes so that I can see...I AM NO LONGER LIVING IN DARKNESS.

Before: I was constantly focusing on myself. I was finding love. I am anti-social? =x I don't know how to help my friends.

Now: I am learning to focus on others. (:

I trust in God that He will provide me with a guy. (:

I can pray for my friends. :D

He has indeed changed my life!

You may not understand how God can change your life. But He can. Because He is God. (:

"Without God, man cannot. Without man, God will not."

Are you listening?

Just came back from my violin lesson. Sigh. Totally got no mood to play...keep on playing the wrong notes. Even teacher know that i'm not my usual self today because she asked me this question: "You not feeling well arhh?"
Maybe I shouldn't have played the violin in school just now. It just sets me thinking about some things again. I told myself not to think...but I still end up thinking.
"Sometimes when I ask the same question twice or thrice, it just means that i'm having doubts."

The American Way.

Today went to school @ 8am for extra nursing lab practice...I guess I still need more PRACTICE! Going back to sch this Sat to practice! I'm like sacrificing my 1 hour to go for my violin lesson. So I go for 1 hour instead of 2 hours...
Anws, today was supposed to go to Starbucks to study with Suhaila. But apparently, Starbucks forever packed with people...So we went to Sakae instead! Haha!
As usual, I ate my FAVOURITE Tempura Udon! Then I tempt Suhaila to eat also! Hehe...it's just toooooo irresistible! Then we study for a while then we went to Starbucks to grab a drink before heading home sweet home! (:
The weather seem pretty cold so I ordered Cafe Latte. (:
I still rmb the first time I drank Starbucks was with Petrina...she rec me to drink Java Chips. Somemore in TTSH. Then the first time I drank Cafe Latte was with Joanne @ Yishun Starbucks...
I kinda "mountain-tortoise" cos I didn't know must add sugar to my Cafe Latte...so I drank it w/o sugar.
So nowadays whenever I drink Cafe Latte, I won't add sugar...not because I mountain tortoise or what but I just like it the way it is. The original coffee smell. :D
"I just love sitting on a bus, listening to King of Anything by Sara Bareilles & enjoying my Cafe Latte from Starbucks."
Live the American Lifestyle - A cup of beverage from Starbucks on the left hand and a BlackBerry on your right hand. (:

"Is God trying to speak to me?"

My brain's too packed thinking about all this.

On the train today, I start to ponder about what I saw. Sometimes you will be so shock at how "fake" a person can be. Sigh, shall not elaborate further. That's why people say it's better to trust in the Lord than in earthly beings because they will disappoint you.

Anws, tmr i'm heading to Starbucks to study with my 'ex-leeler' Suhaila. (:

Hope I can ace this coming theory test! :D

Anws, I begin to think about some things again. Sigh. The VapoDrops story. Hmmm, 1 yr alr. & I sill think of it. I have made a mistake in the past! Can it be erased? Sigh.

Then later I saw something. Don't tell me it's another coincidence. Omgosh. I have been praying about it recently and I just saw someone posting what I prayed.

Sometimes I just don't get it. They are constantly on my mind. Why is that so? It hasn't end yet?

BFF.

Hmmm, i'm going to dedicate this post to my BELOVED BFF! (L)
She's the only friend whom I will go out with wearing some apparel I've never worn before. Like recently I bought this jacket from a blogshop which looks so different online. =x I think I will wear it when I go out with her...Idk why but I feel comfortable. I guess maybe she can offer some fashion advice and I'm not afraid of what she thinks. (:
Then next is I've come a long way with her although we've only known each other for like a few years...since secondary school.
I don't know but I feel that some of my friends thinks that I'm talkative and will mind a lot of my negative points...but I guess BFFs are the ones who will accept you for who you are. Xiuwen, do you accept? Haha...

iLove Singapore.

Woke up at 5.15am today morning. Brought my violin and the books to the iLove Singapore Prayer Walk at Padang. I must say sorry to Kimberly. I cock-eyed. Didn't see the Raffles City in Ps PL's msg. So I brought Kimberly to the City Link Starbucks instead of the Raffles City one...then it's like going to be 7am in like a few mins' time. Then we saw another Ps and followed him. Alamak! It turned out that he also dk the way. Then we asked one girl working at Marina Square how to go to the Padang...then she say walk to the McDonald's then turn left. All wrong sia! Then called Ps PL...then we walked back. Thank God we were able to hear the sound coming from the Padang. So we followed the voice and finally reached Padang. Then when we reach there haven't start yet. It was super hot and I was like a dumbdumb wore jeans! =.="
Then we walked from the Padang --> F1 Track --> back to Padang. But I completed 3/4 of the journey cos I was running late for my violin lesson so I walked to Bugis station instead of the Padang. Yea, so I guess that's all. (:
Anws, in conjuncition with the WORLD KINDNESS DAY, they gave us a badge! (: & Daisyyyyyy! Lovely! (:

"Don't follow a pastor, follow JESUS!" -Ps PL.

Beauty in its simplest form.

History

It came as a surprise to me when I saw that. But, I guess it's too much for me to take it.
Maybe it's time for me to withdraw from you because I realise my motives aren't clear. It's like history is repeating itself. I need time to search my heart. Sigh. A leopard doesn't change its spots after all. When will I not be so conscious of looks? Sigh.

Cheese!

Hey peeps! I'm back to blog again...

Ytd I went to Little India during the break to have Indian foooood! Oishi~! I had Chicken Briyani, shared it with PAMELA. It was a bit too spicy for us to handle I guess. Then Lina, Priya had something similar. Then Khai's one was rather cute! Two BIG BIG biscuits! haha! (:

Then after school I went to Three Monkeys to watch Kumar & friends! First time! Kumar is so funnnnnnny~!

I went with PAMELA, Derrick, Lina, Priya, Izzulwan, and 2 of wan's friends...it costs 20 bucks and we have a free drink each. (:

When Wan ordered coke, we were like a bit surprised ahh...haha! Then I ordered Kissy Strawberry. OMG. The vodka smell and taste super strong! Soooooo sucky! =x But after awhile the smell kinda fade away. So still okays...

Anws, the whole thingy end at 10 plus...then I took train back with PAMELA, Priya and Derrick...

Ytd was pretty fun! Had a GREAT time laughing! :D

LOVE.

I'm back in the library again, sitting beside the BIG BIG windows in the library.

I just love watching the clouds in the sky. Gives me a sense of peace, comfort and freedom.

Anws, I was searching for Marie Digby's songs...her MVs just give me a very sad feeling. & I was brought back to the past again. Sigh. Sometimes I just feel that I live in the past because history keeps repeating itself.

The first song I listened to was Avalanche, followed by Come to Life, then Feel. These songs are about love, and with a touch of sadness. I'm beginning to feel that sadness coming back into my life...or maybe it's trapped in there all along?

It's all about love, and always.

"All I need is a touch of God's love."