BFF's 18th! (:

Today is my BFF's birthday! :D
HAPPPPPPPY BIRD-DAY to BIG WEN! Hehe! =P
Hope our friendship will stay continue to stay strong in times of good and bad! (:
Anws, I am such a Smart Alec. Went for violin as usual when there's no violin lesson, but there's a replacement for me at 3.30pm. Soooooo toooooo bad! Can only replaced it next time then. =x
Then I went to BIG WEN's house to give her a surprise! (:
I've made a book for her...the papers are kinda nice actually. Still rmb when I bought it from Popular, i was like wondering how come it's so cheap? When I compare it to the papers from Made with Love. So it turns out that Popular got their papers from CHINA. While Made with Love got their papers from USA. No wonder the price difference! Alamak! Anws, I bought for her a mini mannequin since she likes to design...& i'm also going to make a DVD for her! :D
Anws, went to Orchard with her! Our same old place. (: Then shopped for like a few hours then head backkkkk home cos she needs to rush back to Yishun to celebrate her BIRD-DAY. (:
We went to Sakae Sushi for lunch! (:
OMG...i love their Tempura UDON! Oishi~!! When the tempura is in your mouth, you can taste the unique taste...a bit eggy and the prawn is like bouncing in your mouth lorhh! HAHA! Then the udon is smooth, the soup is sweet and light, and OMG. I'm in heaven! Haha! (:
Then after that I played Happy Birthday & Twinkle Twinkle Lil' Stars on my violin for her! In the toilet in Mandarin Gallery. =x I'm like such a weirdo sia...in the past is eat Mash Potato in the toilet, now is play the violin in the toilet! =x Haha!
"I hope to make my blog a food, fashion, and Godly blog! (:"

In a Nutshell.

Hey folks! It's been a few days since I've blogged. I guess idk what to say.
Hmmm...this Sat is my BFF's birthday! Hmmm, can't wait for this day to come! (:
Spent like so much time and effort planning...hope it'll turn out well! (: Have Faith! :D
Then on Sunday I'm going to my friend's house to celebrate Halloween! :D I'm gonna become a VAMPIRE! haha!
Anws, tmr i'm having cell group @ TCT...hope to get KFC Chicken after cell! (:
Will I meet you tmr?

He hears. He cares. He helps.

Pray.
"Speak to God because He wants to know how you feel."

Happy Sunday! (:

After service, I have a craving to eat Laksa!!!
Since I fell sick, I wanted to eat laksa! But got a super inflammed throat so can't eat it! So after service, I went backkkkkk to Sembawang to find laksa...but I can't find it at the MRT station apparently. But thank God i rmbed Sunplaza have. So I went there to get myself a bowl of Katong Laksa and Sharksfin souppppppp...
Then otw home, I thought about some things. Besides being a nurse, there are also other things which I can become tooooooo. Like, a pastor? A person who takes pictures of food? A violinist? Haha!
Anws, went back home, eaten, watched Jackie Chan on tv, then I fell asleep for like 2 hours plus...so tired sia. Woke up at 5.45am today to get to Expo to setup. In the past I will just stay at home and watch tv on Sundays. But now, I wake up early on every Sunday for church, if not to serve in David's club! (: Looking at how the children smile just brightens up my day! :D Hehe.
Anws, I should be studying on every weekend. But apparently, I lack the discipline and the time. Ohhhhhhhh no! Gotta pray.
Anws, I've gotta go eat again! My appetite is like soooooooo huge nowadays! Just eaten a bowl of rice like 2 hours ago and i'm eating again! Siannnnnnnn...I don't wanna GROW FAT! =X

If Jesus is Lord, we will live in holiness.

Ps Khong preached today at the volunteer service. (:

Like what the title has said, If Jesus is Lord, we will live in holiness. (:

To live in holiness, we will have to:

1. Set your mind on things above. "Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. ²Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things."-Colossians 3:1-2 (NIV)
2. Put to death your earthly nature. "Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. ⁶Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.^[a] 7You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. ⁸But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips." -Colossians 3:5-8 (NIV)
3. Put on the new self.

During the volunteer service worship, what my violin teacher has said came up in my mind. "Feelings...It's not about finishing the song, but expressing the meaning of the song. Like playing slowly, or playing out the staccato." Then when I worship Jesus today, I realise that I'm just singing the lyrics out and like not feeling anything. So I just find that no matter how sweet your voice is, or how good you may sound at singing the song, it's equals to nothing when you have no emotions. Therefore, every time when I worship, I have to constantly remind myself to sing because I can feel it and not to sing to complete that song.

Lady in Waiting.

You know what? After I begin a new life with Jesus, haha...most of the time when I see people who needs help or who ain't christians, how I wish there's a "SAVE" button which i can click! Haha! Then can save a lot of people at one go. (: God is really good. I'm so anxious because I have really felt His goodness personally!
Anws, let me talk about lady in waiting bahh. I've finally finished reading that book! Now moving on to iLove, the book which florence has lent to me. (:
After reading Lady in Waiting, I have an insight to what it means to become a Lady in Waiting. I didn't know about all these in the past. So I ended up getting hurt by the guys I chase, and ended up suffering all those needless hurt. I really lived in the darkness in the past I guess. Until God came into my life. (:
He's the light to help me see things in a different way. (:
Back to Lady in Waiting. The most recent one which I've learnt is that God is molding me to become the Mrs Right for my Mr Right, also at the same time, He is molding my another half to become my Mr Right.
Also, in the past, before I know Jesus in a personal way, I would always carry the fear which I have after watching horror movies. No matter how i try not to think about it, I know it'll remain in one part of my brain.
But after watching PA2 ytd, I was scared in the theatre...but when I came out, the fear was like greatly reduced. Although I was still a bit scared at night, but I prayed and He has answered my prayers.
"I didn't know why I could trust in Him but not the other gods. Is this a sign to say that you are the one and only God?"

Melancholy.

It's Saturday again, I had my violin lessons. (:
This time round I guess I need more practice. Practised @ home for almost a week before this lesson at home, but when I attended today's lesson, the teacher told me that I needed more feelings. Anws, I learnt a lot of things today ehh...doesn't feel like a beginner's lesson anws. I learnt like what are the dots about, how to play Staccato, then play normally, and to put the fingers on the strings while playing the other notes. I guess I always make this mistake (by drawing the bow too short) is because I'm afraid my hand will move and I will ruin everything. Sigh. More practice again! =/ Can't wait to move on and start on with Grade 1!

Paranormal Activity 2

Okays...this is soooooooo scary but AWESOME! :D
Went out with Szeya, Cheng Hui & Derrick to Cine to watch PA2. It is freaking awesome man! PA2 is actually showing the before and after of PA1. As in, it shows what happen before Katie & Micah shifted house...& it shows what happened after Katie disappeared after killing Micah. Some of the things are similar, like the banging of doors, and pulling. OMG. The pulling is scarier now! Then there was a few parts you could literally shout out lorhh. Anws, when the movie started, it was sooooooo funny sia! Cos Derrick was passing the drink to Szeya, then the next minute I know, the whole cup of coke was on the floor! Haha! Funny ttm!
Anws, if you are looking for some excitement in your life, I would recommend PA2. Awesome.
Then after watching PA2, we went to Dhoby Ghaut to play L4D2. OMG. Sooooooooooo long never play liao! Finally i get to play! But Cheng Hui play until halfway not feeling well...=((
Have a fun time killing zombies & shouting! =x Hahaha.
After that chiong to cell group in Redhill. Played UglyUgly as our icebreaker! (: Wahhh...my cell sisters sooooooooo good @ snatching sia! Anws, the moral of the story is that "when opportunity comes, must grab it! If not must wait until the next opportunity comes."
Then we talked about "Our new life with Jesus." Then during the worship, I prayed. And I guess the thing which struck me is, "Can I really put God in my first place?" It's a tough thing to do...but I have to do it because it is what is expected for me. I believe He's my Lord.

Hangover.

Reached home about 1am today morning...I was like feeling a lil' bit tipsy, and was blabbering nonsense! Left St James kinda early cos we reached there quite early and we drank like vodka coke, vodka lime, Bacardi Breezer Lime and Peach...OMG. Drink until i felt like puking ehh...and i went a lil' siao. Cos when we reached Vivocity, there was only a few people...so I was like singing Lady Gaga's Telephone and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star! OMG. Really went siao liao...feeling like shit and so tired. I guess next time when I go clubbing, i'll not drink like siao! But thank God. He answered my prayers! I didn't puke, then i returned home safely. (:

Anws, it's quite an AWESOME experience haha. St James is nice and we got free drinks! :D And i love the stamp which they'll stamp on your hand! It glows in the dark! Nice! (: I guess pictures speak a thousand words. So later i'll post the pics! (:

Last but not least, i guess it's pretty bad for the soul. Cos when I went to school today, I was feeling like a zombie. Really. Dead sia. Reminds me of the song "DJ got us falling in Love." Cos there's one sentence which says "zombie coming back to life?" It's like pretty true. Cos in the night with all the music and drinks, you'll feel like so hyper, dancing around. But when it's morning, you'll turn into a zombie. Thinking about the state I was in ytd made me have seconds thoughts about drinking.

"Thanks Adeline for the advice ytd. (:"

I'm Sorry.

I wanna say a BIG thank you to NR0928! :D They are soooooooooo sweet! They bought a mango cake to celebrate pam and my birthday! (: The cakkkkkkkkke is oishi~! (:
Tomorrow is so going to be AWESOME! :D

Will be taking group photo and duet photo with Huijin. Haha. Next, will be meeting up with Eileen! Was supposed to meet her during my first week of hols but apparently i fell sickkkkkkk...=((...lastly, imma going clubbing with my friends tomorrow night! Thank God school starts late on Thursday. (:

Btws, I remember I wrote in one of my post saying that how nice would it be if there's no stereotyping in this world! But I am one. =/ Sigh. I tried. Really. To put the past behind me. But I am still being a stereotype...2 scenarios proved me right. & I feel real guilty man. Gotta repent and pray to God. So NEVER judge a book by its cover!!! & NEVER ASSUME!!! =(( I really dk what to say but I've gotta change!

"God is indeed Faithful!"

The beginning.

Today is the start of school. My first lesson is lab. Hmmm...I love this teacher ehh! (: Haha. She is my competitor. What do I mean by that? She's so much lamer than me! HAHA! But she's so cute ehh. Maybe because she has been working in a mental hospital before coming to my poly. Anws, she's a child of God. Can hear that from the way she talks. I agree with some of the things she's said. "God is with her everywhere she goes."

Anws, I'm chosen as the assistant class leader! OMG! =(( Why choose me? Sigh. But thank God it's ONLY assistant. Heng ahh~

Btws, I wanna share about violin. Ytd I was reading about Stradivarius. I wanted a good quality violin like Stradivarius. But thank God i did some research. Cos the violin costs like up to 5 million dollars. =x

But I guess it should be priceless? With almost 300 years of history, and 700 Stradivarius violins left in this world, shouldn't it be priceless? Stradivarius violins are hand-crafted...it's just so amazing. Gonna get myself a book on violin and read up about it. (:

Awesome?

I mean seriously...must you like say all the vulgarities to attract a girl's attention? Or talk loudly in the trains? I really can't take it when those people do this, like start saying the f word or ccb. Maybe they think it's cool. Idk. Acting like bengs or lians is just an example of insecurity. Cure it with Jesus. (:
OMG. But yea, you attract the kind of person by the way you behave. Bengs and lians? Similarity attracts.
This is how you attract someone. (: By talent.
Have been listening to this song for a few weeks. It's AWESOME! (:

Is Jesus Lord?

This is the title of today's sermon.
3 Reasons why we must acknowledge Jesus is Lord:

1. Jesus is God.
2. Jesus is God in the flesh.
3. Jesus is the God who died for us

Jesus came out from the womb of a virgin lady, who's name is Mary. Jesus went through most of the things which we went through too. He is God in the flesh, He is now, and forever will be. He came from Heaven to sacrifice for us because of our sins. Sigh. Different people feel it differently.

Anws, before attending the volunteer service in the morning at 8.15am at Expo, I was reading Lady in Waiting on the train. Haha...I was actually reading that book on-and-off in case you might wonder why I was taking like such a long time to read the book. So let me summarise what I've read including the past few weeks one.

Ruth. A book in the bible, tells us about a lady called Ruth. She became a widow. She left her country to go to a foreign land. Ruth was a classic example of a lady of Faith. And God providently directed Ruth to Boaz's field. But Boaz wasn't attracted to her outer appearance. He was attracted to the virtue and character displayed in Ruth's life. A woman of virtue is irresistible to a godly man. If a woman thinks she can attract a guy with her beautiful body, then she's wrong. Or maybe she's right. She'll attract a lot of guys, but NOT a godly guy. "Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes." (1 Peter 3:3 NIV)
In the chapter of Lady of Security, under the feelings of insecurity section, it says "Why do women tend to "go after the guys"?" The reason is because of INSECURITY. An insecure woman has her world centered on something (marriage) or someone (Mr Right) that can be lost or taken away. Insecurity keeps a woman from experiencing consistent joy even within a relationship, because a man CANNOT provide security, only God can. Insecurity causes you to cling to a relationship. You feel a lack of confidence unless you have a man. When he is not with you, you fear he will not come back or call again. You want him to make a commitment so that you will not lose him. Insecurity in a relationship can cause jealousy and bickering. I was once like that and I got hurt every time I "go after a guy". I guess my reason, or rather excuse can be summarised by this one sentence. If you want something, then you should go and get it. But we are actually believing a lie if we, women, go after the guys. We think "I must get the best for myself because God may not give it to me." God is a God who lets us choose that's why there are a lot of people out there who are pre-believers because He lets us choose Him. God gives us a choice to choose between His plans and our plans. Only God has all things in view. Don't settle for less than God's best. God can and will give you His best if you wait for it.
Then under the Manipulation and Maneuvering section, it says when we see a woman chasing after a guy, you don't immediately say "Yes, I see that she is really insecure!" Insecurity dwells in the heart. When a woman manipulates a situation, she feels personal satisfaction because she believes she is in control. Okay, now let me summarise an example in the book, Lady In Waiting. A cute guy arrived on campus. Then all the girls were like asking for his schedule and those girls would "just happen" to be standing on the corner as he passed. They think that this will increase their chances of developing a relationship with him. Another form of maneuvering is to become the guy's "mom". Insecure females all too often deceive themselves into thinking that because they do so much for a particular young man, they will surely win his love. Wrong! It's easy for guys to let a woman sacrifice for him. Why? Most men are used to the sacrifices of a woman. But they don't marry their mom!
This is the part which I like. Elisabeth Elliot says she is often asked this question, "What can I do to get him to notice me?" & her answer is "Nothing." But "there is one thing you can do: turn the whole business to God. If he's the man God has for you, "No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly" (Ps. 84:11)."
Under the Motive Check section, it says a woman with selfish motivation mentally plots the next maneuver to capture the attention of the man of her dreams. She should be sure that whatever we do, there should be no motives. If we can do something for a brother but not a sister, shouldn't we check our motives behind it? "All a man's [woman's] ways seem innocent to him [her], but motives weighed by the Lord (Proverbs 16:2)" Manipulation can be deadly. If you maneuver to get a man, you will have to maneuver to keep him! To quit the hunt and stop "going after the guys," you must first avoid maneuvering and manipulating. Second, you must put your security in Christ.
Lastly, in the chapter of Lady of Contentment, under the section of Wait, it says such an assignment [wait] is not to cause suffering, but prevent it. Women experience so much needless pain when they run ahead of God's format. Also, Keeping in mind those common ways that women can be defrauded by men, realise that a single woman can sabotage her own contentment by defrauding herself. Misread intentions between men and women put them on a collision course. The crash can be avoided if the Lady of Contentment would keep in mind that her emotions must be submitted to the facts: ministering together is a privilege as a believer, not an automatic marriage opportunity.
This book is totally AWESOME to me! Most of the things which i've written here is adapted from Lady in Waiting by Jackie Kendall & Debby Jones.

Communication.

Communication is of utmost importance. There are so many things which i wanna say here.
Communication is a 2 way thing. Most of the time, we happen to send non verbal cues to others which we don't know. Like my communication teacher has said, non verbal cues don't lie. We may say to someone that we're okay. You hear that often right? But seriously, who really feels okay? Few. How do we know that? By our non verbal cues. I have shown way too much of that to someone. I didn't really mean it. I guess I didn't think clearly. It's because of this, people have lost confidence or trust in us.
Another thing I wanna say is...parents always ask why we'd rather spend time in front of a computer than talk to them. I guess it's because they don't listen. Many a times, they don't understand us. We want something, and they just say NO straight in your face, what's our reflex? Our brain will tell us that it's ready to fight a battle! Then we'll react acc to the way they reject us. This is why I say parents don't listen! Instead of saying no, they should discuss it with us. Understand why we really want it, and explain it in nicely to us, explaining why they refuse! Parents should listen with their hearts and not their ears. Sometimes parents are just stereotypes too. They think like that, they react the way they think. When you listen to someone talk, empty your minds from everything and be willing to accept anything that you hear & NOT SAY NO STRAIGHT IN SOMEONE'S FACE!!!!!!
"Behind every story there's words which are unspeakable."

Can I just erase the IN from indecisive?

Went for my violin lesson today. It's awesome I'll say. But. Omg. I'm in a dilemma. I guess it should be most violinist dream to get a good violin. Although i'm still in the beginner's phase, I guess I really love violin. It's become a part of my life. I took up violin in the first place because I really wanna make it a pastime and because I'm so impressed with people playing "Flying Free". When i'm sad or lonely, I can play some pieces to help me cope with all the problems I have. Karina said this to me on Friday: "Focus on one thing and be good at it." I agree. Totally. I love learning. I'm very kiasu actually. Haha. There was a lot of things which I couldn't do when I was young. Like dancing, and learning things. Thus, I'm using the money and the time I have now to catch up. Like learning drums, learning tennis, and learning violin. Since I've found something that I love, which is the violin. It's natural for people to cling on to something which they love. Never let go, right? I really yearn for a good violin. But out of all things, money have to be the obstacle. It's always money. Without money, we can never be happy because there are a lot of things which we can't do without it. But money can't buy everything. What an irony.
A violin which may seem very ordinary to you, looks like a beauty to me. The wood, and everything. Its sound. It's just so amazing. I really want it. But the thing is, money and me. It's worth the money but am I willing to spend a fortune on it? In future when I become a nurse, I will have no time to attend violin lessons which to me, is a waste! & by buying such a good quality violin, will I be siannnnnn of it? I get bored of things easily. I love violin. But after buying the good quality violin, will I get bored of it like after a few years? I really need an answer. How I wish I could be decisive.

Anws, after my violin lesson, I went to TPY to find that cake shop which I saw on Channel 8 ytd. But I still couldn't find that shop! Crappppppp~
Then I went home to finish up watching the rest of the dvds which I rented then I head off to Causeway Point to watch "Eat Pray Love" with my BFF. The movie was a bit too long. Like 2 hours 20 mins. It's not badddddd I should say but it gets a lil' boring at some parts and there's a lot of Indian gods. But overall, yea, it's quite nice. In that movie, she said a lot of things which is what I'm thinking about, what is bothering this world. & I really wanna be like her, go on a backpack travel. It's just so amazing isn't it?
Btws, after the movie, I went to buy my FAV Korean seaweed & I bought 1 kg of NOUGAT! Haha. I'm crazy about them! =x
"When the world forsakes you, remember, God doesn't."

It's time to exercise those limbs of yours.

My title says it all. Exercise. I was playing badminton with a few kids just now. It was awesome man! I was drenched in sweat...and Karina and Ps PL was like asking me "How long have you not exercise?"

Haha...the answer is: Very long? Or everyday, if you considered walking a part of exercise.

This is the part I hate. I am a person who sweat like nobody's business. So walking to school, walking to my violin school, and shopping at Bugis just drives me mad because I can sweat like a few buckets of water. Therefore, no matter what I do, I'll sweat like shit. Needless to say, I will sweat more than anyone else playing badminton just now. So I guess it's not about not exercising, but how many sweat glands do I have. Haha.

But overall I enjoyed it cos I haven't play badminton for like years. So I wanna thank Ps PL for this game of badminton. (: Besides the game, I also enjoy the time I spend with them. Just like what Derrick has said, "Bonding." Yea, it's been so long since I've bonded with them. My cell sisters, and Ps PL.

Btws, Florence baked cake for us! Yay! I'm eating her cake for breakfast tomorrow. (: Her cake looks awesome! I guess it'll taste awesome too! Haha. (:

Talking about exercising, I'm all geared up for tmr's violin lesson! I'll not faint tomorrow & i'll continue to work hard for violin because I really loved it a lot. Passion is the word to describe it! (:

Before I head off to play badminton, I was alone at home. Cool. I just need this peace. =x Then I listened to the Jolin Tsai disc which I bought like ermmms...4 years back. Thinking about it, so many things have happened 4 years back. Anws, back to the disc. I was singing and enjoying the songs. I guess there are many people out there who are so bothered by love and sad things? Her songs are nice but it's all about love and sadness? Also gt happiness. I guess JESUS is the solution to the problems out there. We've gotta break that viscous cycle! Stop all that teenage pregnancies! Anws, I happen to see this article when my mum was reading the newspaper. It's this article about Making out at the staircase. I mean seriously, just because your friends are doing all this = you have to do it too? C'mon, we should use our brains and WE ALL HAVE A CHOICE. We just need JESUS to realise that all this shit is WRONG. & we need JESUS to think it through, and learn how to SAY NO! to those EVIL people out there who are out to tempt you! I guess it's hard to reach out to those people out there...so instead of complaining here, I can/ WE CAN do something more constructive. PRAY for them!

Serenity.

I went to get the books for school with Lina & Priya in the afternoon. Then head off to Causeway point to get myself some violin books! (: But they don't have any Don Besig books. I wanna get them, then learn how to play "Flying Free." Sweet. (:
I guess I'm loving violin more and more...it's becoming part of my life. (:
Then after that I rented some DVDs to burn some time away at home. I rented Kick Ass, Nanny McPhee & the BIG BANG & When I'm Rome...these are the movies I wanted to watch but got no time, if not there's nobody to acc me. =((
Otw home, I saw this sign -->"Paranormal Activity 2: Coming Out Soon."
OMG!! I seriously can't wait to see this man! Paranormal Activity scared the hell out of me. I can still remember the scene when the girl was being dragged out from bed. I think about it when I'm going to bed at night. It's freaking scary but AWESOME! The word to describe it. (:

Then I took a bus home instead of a train. I guess the reason I prefer bus than train is because I can just take this time to listen to music, to enjoy the scenery as well as take some time to think about the things which are happening in my life right now.
"Sometimes it's good to leave some time for ourselves to get away from the hustle and bustle of life."

Karaoke session! (:

Today I went to my BFF's house to SING, SING, SING! :D
It's been a long time since we came tgt to sing! Like finally we get to sing TOGETHER! (: Haha.
We sing for like hours...then we took a few videos! Haha! It was uber funny & nice! (:
I wanted to post the videos here...but my BFF will KILL ME! Haha...so i guess i'll just post the pictures here! (:
Times like this are rare...so we need to treasure the time and cherish each other.

Diaos...

French Fries!! :D