Sooooooooo D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-E-D!!!!!!

Came back home, slept for a while, then i went to do the ppt for adult nursing. didnt even eat my dinner until now.

A thought came to my mind...why am i like the only one looking through the slides? nobody even bother to take a look at the slides and edit it! pls lorhh...it's a grp project!!! Why like nobody bother sia? i know they did their parts...but it's just that it's not perfect yet. i wonder if they can spend the amount of time which they spend on fb on their projects?!?! i think the ans should be NO?

today i needed you guys, you guys weren't even there!! but you guys helped me when i needed help for the CBL. but i'm so disappointed... :'(

i'm not gonna care anymore.

Weekends burnt.

Ytd's Gkidz was chaotic! Was supposed to teach the children to hop over the hula hoops holding a friend's hand...but when they came to the station, some of the kids started to play with the hula hoops...arghhhhh! Children are hard to teach man! But nevertheless, gotta persevere! (:

Anws, today went to work @ 8.30am...saw some ppl i know & i saw evelyn's child. (: Anws, we missed each other by a minute. Hope that the timing will be right some time. (:

It will come one day. Have Faith! (: Everything is possible when God is here! (:

Anws, got a msg from fb..."God wants to speak to you"...it says something about being sincere in your prayer i think...hmmm. true enough, i think i have not been praying sincerely...i just did it mainly because i have to do it? Really hope that i have the compassion & sincerity!!

Hmmm...having Pharmacology presentation tmr & my head is in pain! Gotta sleep early tonight! (:

Buh-byes! (:

Your Power. (:

Had my skills test on Wed & i've passed it! Woohoooooooo...(:
Then wanna thank God for answering my prayers... :D
Anws, I'll continue to do what is needed to help you...although sometimes i rly feel so pekchek with you!!! But nevertheless, help your friends out of love & not because of some goals or whatsoever...so i'm trying to help you out of love...
Anws, next week is going to kill me! Pharmacology presentation on Monday, Research Methodology on Thurs, & lastly, Statistics on Friday...i'm going to survive this man! Cos i have You! (:

Love with a stranger. (:

(:

Holy.

I love this verse so i want to share it with you guys here in my blog!
James 4: Submit yourselves to God.

• What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you?
• You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want because you do not ask God.
• When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
• You adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred toward God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
• Or do you think Scripture says without reason that the spirit he cause to live in us envies intensely?
• But he gives us more grace. That is why the Scripture says: "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."
• Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
• Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
• Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom.
• Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
• Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it. When you judge the law, you are not keeping it, but sitting on judgement in it.

Went for Gkidz ytd, and i'm praying in tongues. Coooooool! (: Then while praying ytd, i seem to see this image of a stick or something blocking my way. an obstacle. is it a sign from God or...?

But everything went well ytd i guess. I just love the company of the kids! Hehehe...loving them more & more...(:

Then today i went to Expo for work! Woohoo! No need to work @ TCT liao! Now change venue to Expo! Coooooool man! (: Then thank God...i saw "my friend." :D Looking forward to working on weekends! Hehehe! (:

Then after work, went for GDOP! Wow! Just find that it's A-W-E-S-O-M-E! (: anws, when you are a christian, you would wanna encourage your friends to become christians as well. because God is just so GREAT. it's diff for me to explain it...you have to experience it in order to understand how I feel. Sometimes, i just want my friends to come & accept Christ into their life. But it's hard! Sometimes i just feel so tired after trying. But God will provide a way for me. It rly breaks my heart to see my close friends and kins do things to hurt themselves. I rly want them to accept Christ into their life so that they will be saved & their lifes will be improved! But sometimes it's not that YOU want & God will give it to you. God doesn't give because he has His own reasons.

History

Max! (:

Hmmm...i'm back to post what happened on my weekends! (:
Last saturday night, i went for Gkidz! (: & i snapped a picture of a cute boy! Hehehe...cute to the max! His name is called Max btws. (:
Then on Sunday, i went for service...love that day man! Woots^^!
Then after that, i went studying with Adeline @ TPY Library. But toooooooo bad, the lib no seats available. Then Adeline wanted to go to the washroom...so i was being lame & i said why not study in the toilet? =x Then ended up we rly sat in the toilet studying! Then i also ate Mash Potato cos i need to clear the space in my bag. Then ppl were looking. =.="
Hmmm...that's all i guess. Byes~

Regular.

Went to see the doctor today! Crap~ Antibiotics like not working. =x
The acne on the forehead gone! But the sides and on the cheeks...T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E man!
So now changed to Oral Contraceptives. Must take at the same time EVERYDAY! A CHALLENGE man! Crap! Hope it'll heal like ASAP. & i'll regain my beauty again! (:

i'm sorry.

After my parents came home, they could see that i've cried. & my mum said that i'm very sad this time cos in the past when i cried at home, my eyes wasn't that swollen. maybe it's cos i've rubbed my eyes? i also dk. but...sigh. i'm sorry to let them down. they care for me...but i'm not a filial daughter! =( crap.

A lil' too emotional.

Bought ipod touch ytd, then i went to sch today. was being said by a few ppl. i also feel guilty for buying w/o them. but i've alr bought it! What do you want me to do?!?! i know that they were just kidding...but idk why i gt sooooooooo emotional today that i started crying. i just couldn't take it! Partly it's my fault. Nt entirely his fault...or idk? Then during the lecture, i was also said by one person. then i cried again. i was just saying it for fun! Why do you have to say me? Do you think it feels nice?! I'm not the one who started it either!!!!!! You wanna lecture, go lecture your friend! Not me!!!!!!
God, i'm really trying my best not to criticise! This is the time when i'm thinking about it. I didn't talk back because i know it's wrong. But...i can't take it so it just came out as tears. Why God!
Feeing a lil' bit depressed & i gt this verse from itouch..."Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up." -Luke 18:1
I put this verse as my status on fb like ytd or on sat...& now it cn be used on me. What a timely arrival.

God, I NEED You!

I am sooooooooo troubled! Arghhhhhh!! I'm struggling!!!!!! God, I NEED You now!
Flipping through the Bible, i came across Romans Chapter 12. Saw a verse..."If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everybody." -Romans 12:18.
God, is this what you want me to do? I know i should do that because she's my friend. But i rly feel uncomfortable! God, Bless me!
I should just leave everything to You Lord.
I'm soooooooo looking forward to attending church to receive God's word! (:

Change. A good one?

Went for Network Meeting ytd. Then...sigh. A change of cell group leader! =( My leader is no longer aunty Kat...now is aunty Pui Ling. But nvm...i like both of them. So...i guess it's okays.
Hmmm...nothing else to say le.
Byes~

faith.hope.love! (:

Women Of Worth pen! (:

Coooooooool man! Nowadays i keep seeing this! hehehe...(:
hmmm, posted the 1 Corinthians 13 Love verses...then my friend posted this too! then ytd i went to Mount Zion, saw this Faith.Hope.Love notebook! (:
Hmmm...Hillsong's latest album is also called Faith.Hope.Love! Coooooooool! (:
I must step out in faith, hoping that L-O-V-E will soon come in my way! :D

it's so happening! today. (:

God! Praise You man!! You are like sooooooooooo wonderful! :D
Hmmm...today Florence came back to sch today to visit us! (: & she brought some banana choco chip muffin along! hehehe! Then PAMELA said she wants choco chip & i say i want banana...then Florence say...it's tgt one. lols!
Hmmm...then after that during grp meeting, i rly had a long nice chat with Adeline & Suhaila...(:
I really hope that during this period of time, God will rly perform some miracles!
Anws, bought some cards from Mount Zion for my precious ones & i also bought a piece of Hillsong cd! woots! btws,...the auntie is soooooooooooo polite! (: May God bless her! :D
Adeline, may God bless you! You deserve a better man than him!!!

♥10th May ♥

Went out with Hexi, Shuxian, & PAMELA! Ate @ Manhattan Fish Market! (:

The food there not bad lahh...then after eaitng, we went to buy some things...& off we went home! (:

But i'm really happy today cos of some things! Hehehehehehe! :D

saw you today! really really happy to see you! :D rly admire you! (: btws, do you rmb me?

it's getting bad?

Today during Nlab, Adeline isn't feeling rly well...seems like she has been sick for like the past few days...hmmm, hope she gets well real soon! (:
Then during the past few weeks, a lot of ppl not feeling well...Sigh. Hope everyone get well real soon!
Anws, today i'm going out with my PAMELA, Hexi, & my senior i got to know from the Japan trip! Woohoo! Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y! (:
hope to see him today! hehehe! =)

Today went to work energy-less. damn tired! Reached TCT, went to Joyhall, & the first thing i did was to rest on the table. Then my colleague asked me what happened? & i was like..."ermmms, nothing happened? just tired?" then she asked me whether i know how to speak in tongues or not...& asked me what verse i liked. then i was like kinda sad and embarassed...cos up till now, i don't even know if i know how to speak in tongues...if i know, i don't dare to speak. Sigh...ytd before Gkidz started, Ps Jasmine asked everybody to pray in tongues and in my heart i was like shit! i rly dk what to do...then all i did was pray in my heart, mouth shut. SIGH. ohh, back to the point abt this morning...then i started reading the bible. Read Psalms & Corinthians...hmmm...read abt some verses which cn be applied in my life. Then after that, prayed & part of my energy is back...but i fell sick! =(( Sigh. Hope i'll get well ASAP!

Totally drained!

Wore a tank top, leggings and boots to school today. Hmmm...seems like i've attracted unwanted attention? on the train, dots lorhh...gt 2 ppl look at me...and i'm wondering..."what's there to look at?" Sigh...next time maybe i'll wear more clothes...cover up. =x
anws, today during nursing lab, my teacher told the whole class abt the Jap students coming to Singapore in September! :D yippee! (: & i'll be hosting them! :D Cool man~ can host the Jap students...bring them ard Sg...& my teacher said this: "The Jap students wanna know how the nursing students spent their time and don't bring them to places that needs money or something liddat." My answer was...but most of the places in Sg needs $$ lehh...then how? =x & if they wanna know how we spend our time @ home, during the homestay, don't go out then...stay @ home and use the com, log on Fb...that's what i do @ home. =x but i won't treat them liddat! I'll bring them to lots of places! :D E-X-C-I-T-E-D!!! :D
hmmm...then after nursing lab, i went to Mount Elizabeth to have my blood test again. Hope the results will be goodgoodGOOD!!! The doctor said if the result is good, don't needa take med anymore. bt the thing is, i have not been taking my meds either. so stop or nvr stop still the same to me. i won't take the meds anyway. =x
soooooooooooooo, after the blood test, went to TC for team meeting! Today's theme is "Draw me closer to you, Lord." Kinda fun...get to know new ppl! (: & after that, cab-ed home...thanks to Elsie...& Praise God! (:
Btws, before i go off, i wanna share what i read for QT today! Becoming Inclined to God: "Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him." -Colossians 3:12-17.
I find it soooooooooo dots? I only saw 3:17 today...however, when i got home and flip thru it, now then i see 3:12-17. =.="
Anws, byes! (:

6th May is loved! (:

someone suggested driving this to amk hub! =x

taking this pic in a dark cinema...but it's kinda clear & bright. Love my cam! (:

Ytd i went to watch Iron Man II with my 3 darlings: Lina, Priya, and PAMELA! :D
The movie is kinda nice...i didn't watch Iron Man part I so @ first i thought the bad guy is the Iron Man...soooooooo stupid sia! =x
I would rate the movie as ermmms...3.5/5? But the thingy is, OMG! the sound is way tooooooooooooooo L-O-U-D! Unbearable!
Hmmm...after that, met my dear cousin for dinner! (: wanted to eat @ Astons but couldn't find the place...so we ate @ Popeye's! (: but the Popeye's a bit diff from the Airport's one. Anws, the most impt thing is that i rly enjoyed myself when i'm with my cousin! :D everytime i see her i always have a new thing to tell her! hehehe...told her about a lot of things...and she told me something which has given me an inch of hope. (: but i'm not thinking too much about...if not i'll go haywire! =x anws, hope that the next time when i meet her i'll bring some G-O-O-D news for her! (:

What is happening? =((

idk why in the afternoon all of a sudden i very vexed! =( what is happening?!?!?! God! What is happening to me??? =((( then just now cried over a pack of potato chips. maybe i'm too stressed out i supposed? i'll cry when i feel the stress! Hope tomorrow will be a much much better day man!!! i need care and concern! srsly!!! Sigh...
In search for an answer. Gotta pray!!!
Saw his baptism video just now...God changed his life. & now i'm wondering, mine is like the same? =x only a lil' change. sigh. God! Let others and myself see the change in me!

God's wonderful message! (:

Did my QT today, & it feels like it's directed @ me...the secret desire, and the thought of serving in the ministry. Soooooooo just pray! (:
Letting God choose: We must put each desire in God's hands and pray. "Lord, you must choose for me. I will not choose for myself."-Today's message from the Daily Bread! (:
I just find it soooooooooooooooo amazing! read it today, and it seems like it's directed at me. the 2 things which are mentioned in the Daily Bread are the issues that are bothering me for the past few days. God, i'm praying for it, & today is the sixth day. when will the day come? should i serve in the ministry? is he the one?
Carrying on praying. & claim your blessings! (:

It's just a joke.

Today during the medical sociology lesson, PAMELA said sorry to me then i said "Sorry no cure."...i meant it as a joke. =x then teacher heard what i said and say that he heard it from some kid's convo and say that it's kinda mean or something liddat not to accept the sorry and say sorry no cure. & say that then what's the use of sorry? But srsly, i meant it as a joke only! but nvm...@ least the whole class laughed. =x
But the teacher is rather interesting though. Talked about how to have a good marriage. & he said one thing which rly made me think. & it's "the appearance doesn't rly matter cos ppl will age. it's the heart that counts." today is the fifth day. how long more to go dear Lord?

Patience...& self-control.

Arghhhhhh...seeing you coming on9 but i have no courage to talk to you! OMG. that's the worst thing man! When will the time come dear Lord? Patience is a virtue. But it's killing me from inside. I'm soooooooooooooo tempted to start the conversation. but i'm afraid it'll get outta control and it'll lead to the same old thingy again. Sooooooooo i guess i gotta be patient! If he's rly the one, God will make the necessary arrangements i guess. (:

Well, well, well...patience is the key.

saw this pic...& the thing that came into my mind is: "You don't talk about Love. You use actions to show what's it instead."

i will continue to wait & see whether is it going to happen or not. Gotta place my faith in the Lord. & believe that there will be a miracle. Just find that it's not going to be an easy task though. But i need to train my patience. I'm just soooooooooooooooooooo impatient!

My friend said this..."Let it come when you least expect it cos this is when it'll be the sweetest." Coming it in this way will be better though...cos @ least it'll turn out great? Anws, hope it'll be sometime soon. =x hahaha. (: mr g...hope we'll get to see each other asap! i hope you'll know that i exist in you life!

God's wonderful plan! :D

Told a few of my friends what happened...& i just find it super duper amazing! I never knew you existed until like now? maybe i talked to you or saw you before in the past. but it's only until now, the feeling is soooooooo strong. & i must be insane for falling for you? =x a person whom i think i'll never have any contact with you.

Love. ^^.

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. The greatest of these is Love." - 1 Corinthians 13:13.
Btws, I think i've heard this phrase before. (:
Hmmm...i find my QT today different from the rest of the days. But nevertheless, it's a good one though.
Just wanna share what i read from the bible:
Love. The bible states that "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if i have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I AM NOTHING."
Anws, i'll be going for service @ TCT later. Hope i can see him. (:

What a tiring day!...yet fun! (:

Ytd after school, i went to Orchard for shopping with PAMELA! (: Went to Gap, wanted to buy tees and shirts...but ended up buying 2 pairs of jeans. But...sigh. After buying the 2 pairs of jeans, i didn't really feel happy cos i think i don't need them cos i have like 10 pairs of jeans @ home? But i still love the jeans though. it's Gap! One of the reason i buy the jeans is because the salesperson is like soooooooooooo patient, ermmms...so nice, so helpful. so far i think only salesperson from Gap and Lasenza is like sooooooooo nice.
Anws, after shopping for an hour or so, PAMELA have to go...so i went to find the bus stop which has the bus i needed to take to marine parade. Found the bus stop, waited for a few mins, the bus arrived. but it was crowded! Then i had to squeeze and squeeze. But after a while, no need to squeeze already thanks to God. Anws, Angela saw me on the bus, so we talked otw to PP...then i went to meet Aunty Kat for dinner. When i went to buy drinks, the staff looked happy and asked me this qn. "did you buy this necklace from Poh Heng?" Then in my heart i was kinda happy! Cos it's like finally someone notices my necklace...that it's from Poh Heng & not some "chapalang" store. =x
After dinner, we went for the farewell party. During the farewell party, we have to share something about thanksgiving. Then i was actually okays...but when i held onto the mic, wth sia...i cried when i said "i want to thank God...". Sooooooooo paiseh...but in the end i still managed to say out some things.
Then after the party, went for Pastor Eugene's network meeting. Towards the end, he said something abt it's alr the past. Then i was thinking "yea, it's alr the past. So i should stop thinking about it and make myself unhappy. i should look forward to the future cos God sent me a wonderful gift! (:" ...Then he spoke till 11.25pm. In my mind, i was thinking..."wth?! How to go home sia? Soooooooooo late alr. From marine parade to sembawang! Where got bus or mrt?" But thank God...and 2 pastors that i managed to get a ride back to semb mrt station. Phew! praise God man...! :D
Soooooooooooooo tired ytd! but it was fun! (: