No words could describe how I feel right now. Only tears.

God, I just couldn't control the tears that's running down my face like a tap that has been left on.
God, am I wrong to wanna get blessings from my parents to be baptised? I wanted to be baptised so badly. I didn't mean to bring so much of unhappiness...I just wanted to be baptised. I thought it was meant to be a joyous occasion. God, you are in control. I trust in your perfect plan, GOD. There's nothing much I could say. All I yearn for right now is to be baptised. GOD, SHOW ME THE WAY.