The Leap Years.

Yesterday night before i head to bed, i watched The Leap Years. Will forever be in my list of meaningful movies. Watched it on a leap year that time with my BFF & i'm watching it again on my TV screen. (:

Teared again, but this time more. In this 21st Century, i don't think any guys will be like them, "We'll meet here same time same place on every 29th February" I just find that nowadays relationships are formed out of desperation for love, out of own personal terms, and rarely on true love. True love never dies but it's so sacred and it's hard to find. It's every girl's dream to find a guy who really love them. But unfortunately, not every guy is like that. Sometimes, some girls refuse to leave a guy because she loves him so much although he don't deserve that treatment. Some guys once they have gotten you and your body, they'll kick you aside like a piece of trash and move on to find other targets. & I can only say that always open your eyes big big and use your brain to think. Anws, i hope to find a guy who'll love me with all his heart. I believe someday, he'll appear in my life when the time is right. (:

Anws, i feel that treating a person with your heart is better than having a lot of friends but the relationship is formed on hypocrisy.

Lastly, i'm done with the AN II paper!! Thank God for the gastritis! hahaha...=x if i didn't have gastritis, i guess i wouldn't have known what is Ranitidine...hehehe. Anws, i should say this time round is the MCQ which has killed me. The SAQ was something expected but not the MCQ. I guess i prolly can get a C. (: hopefully a B! (:

"It's better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all."-The Leap Years.

C

I went to Orchard today with Florence to get some things. Anws, I bought POPCORN from this new shop called "Cornery" OMG! Nice! They have a lot of flavours...i bought the buttersalt one. Not bad not bad~

Anws, i also bought a Coach wallet. I think i a bit disappointed lehh...cos i didn't buy the wallet which i want and that the wallet which i bought i scared it might not last me...but what's done has been done. I'll just make do with it. (:

101.

Sigh. Had a nightmare today again. I was being locked up by my friends. So terrified. So helpless. I kept crying and crying but thank God my cousin was there to encourage me. But i learnt one thing through this dream...it was what i had told my friend recently. "Man disappoints you, but God doesn't."

Anws, sometimes i just find myself contradicting. I wanted a bank with high interest rate. I opened a savings account with Standard Chartered. But i complain because it's hard to get cash with its limited ATMs. So i told myself to open a Citibank account because the interest is the same as S.C but Citibank has more ATMs. However, i thought to myself again, i opened a savings account to save yet i'm withdrawing money. Sigh. Must repent liao...=x

Nightmare.

OMG...had a NIGHTMARE today morning!!!!!! I dreamt that i was pushing a spirit (ghost) on a wheelchair. It was so real that i kept praying to God to help me. But then i thought to myself. I did not do anything wrong so why should i fear the spirit? But still, i was so scared that in my dream, i don't even dare to go home i think. In this dream, i was in a dance school. What is this dream telling me? Hmmm...time to ask God for an answer.

Anws, today i went out to study with Joanne @ Starbucks again! Then we went to Aston's to eat. It's a place i want to go for a long long time. Then both of us had Crispy Fried Fish. Not bad. But a bit too much for me to eat. In 4 days' time, it'll be the start of the exams. Am i really prepared? All i hope for is to get a GPA of more than 3.2 or @ least 3. Hopefully. Hoping for a miracle! (:

Anws...i hope that in the near future, i will be able to:

1. Criticise lesser.
2. Treat others nicer.
3. Share God's message with more people.
4. Do not judge others.
5. Be slow to be angry.

The first 2 things can be simplified by one verse which i like quite a lot: "¹¹If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ." -1 Peter 4:11a.

His dream.

Hmmm...it's been a few days since i've blogged i guess. I've been rather busy with studying and some church stuff and totally got no mood to blog.

Anws, i'm back! This time i'm bringing more things to share! (:

Woke up @ 6 plus today cos i need to reach Expo by 8:15am to attend the volunteer cos i'm serving in GKidz David's Club! (all the 3 yr olds) (: Next week getting my jacket! Woohoo! (:

Before the service starts, they played a song "Your Name." It is the song which i sang during my women's encounter. I was reminded of my encounter weekends. Touched.

During today's service, Pastor Melvin Mak talked about "Dare to Dream."

There are 2 things which we need to do:

1. Attitude of forgiveness-the grace of forgiveness.
2. Attitude of fruitfulness-the gracefulness of faith.

He has mentioned other things too. Some of it which i find that it applies to a lot of people. He said..."If you keep thinking about the past, you will have no idea about your future."

Many a times, people are not willing to take a step of faith. Eg: If only I didnt do this. then we would be good friends now. Typical eg right? If you cont to have this thinking, you'll never step out of it & you'll never know your future! I feel that we should think positively! If you did that something in the past (following my eg.), then don't do it in the future! We just need to step out in faith!

& acc. to Ps MM: Forgetfulness is not about poor memory. It just means that the past doesn't affect us. Agree?

Anws, talking about doing things. An example here. When your friend gets into the Director's list, to her, it's something which is attainable and it's easy. But to you, never attained it before, you wanna get into it but you find it hard. Because of the fact that you have never attained it, you dont know the feeling and dont understand the process so to you it may seem hard. but if you are willing to take that step of faith, you CAN do it too!!

Then after the GKidz thingy, i went for the A.R.I.S.E thingy with my cell sisters. It's basically ermmms...to worship God. then the lady (Cathe) who founded A.R.I.S.E shared a short yet powerful message. Hearing it, i began to tear. It was about that day when Jesus was on the cross with 2 other criminals. & one of the criminals said to Jesus.

Criminal A: "If you are Christ, then free yourself from the cross and free us too." Then criminal B said to criminal A: "Do you know who he is, he is Christ. We are punished because we deserve it! We have sinned! But Jesus Christ, who is sinless, is put to the cross to redeem us!"

Criminal B said to Jesus: "Christ, will you let me join you in paradise or something liddat."& Jesus said Yes.

I just find that it's so powerful. Jesus Christ, a sinless person, came down from heaven to earth to carry our sins so that we will be saved and redeemed! Sometimes i wonder why i didn't get to accept Christ as my personal Lord & Saviour earlier. but i'm glad He found me. It's better late than NEVER.

"God, in everything i do, i want to glorify You."

Imagine.

Can you imagine? for these past few days i've been eating, vomiting, sleeping. Sigh. Soon, i'll develop a phobia. called Phagophobia. Consulted the doc today...gave me some meds again. I'm so sick and tired of eating meds. Will the meds really cure me? I'll try it later. Hope it does.

Anws, went out with Joanne to study @ Starbucks. I've got some facts into my brain. Tomorrow studying again. (: Must get it all into my brain.

Violin

My violin lesson is commencing in 3 weeks time...wahahahahaha! (:

Looking forward to it. The first piece i wanna play i guess is Flying Free.

Hope i'll play the violin nicely! hehe...^^.

"Sometimes God is the best remedy."

Tomato.

My heart is feeling so so so heavy. I cannot shout out loud nor cry! I feel so stressed, depressed.

I just don't know why...these few days i have been vomiting, i cannot control my anger and my past problem has become worse! Then a while ago i thought of my friend. is it really true that when one is sad, more and more of the negative thoughts will begin to fill your mind?

As i thought of you, i began to question myself. Am i the cause of your change? Although you say that it's not my fault, but something in me and the feeling you give me tells me that i cause part of it. I feel real guilty. I really wanna help you to get out of it. I asked God why did He let this happen. I know God has His reasons for letting this happen...but i really feel guilty! I cannot put this over me. Hope this will be over over over over over over over over S-O-O-N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ta-da.

Went for the 40 DOF. Learnt something! YOU ARE SPECIAL! :D

Do not criticise others because you are criticising the works of God!

Anws, i bought Korean Seaweed! :D Love it so much lahh. The Olive oil one is so oishi~

(i'm lazy to upload the seaweed photo! =x) but it's 6.80 for 10 pkts! (:

Then i also bought a Steve Madden bag, after not shopping for one month i think. But they don't have the black one. So i bought the white one! (: (BRUFFLER)

40 Days of F-A-I-T-H! (:

My newly painted nails!

My first StarBucks tumbler! yay! (:

Woohoo! Today is our 2nd "You Can" small group meeeeeeeting! Butbutbutbut it's the FIRST TIME SOMEONE CAME TO OUR MEETING! :D Hehe! Thanks KAI XIN for attending our session! (:

Idk what to say about myself. But i'm sooooooooo cute you see. I brought my lappy. But then realised i never bring my CD ram! =.="""""" Then heng we went to StarBucks, used their wireless. Then the video load until the sun set still havent load finish. =x lols. Then later i so smart go and click esc cos i thought Google Chrome load finish liao but the video still cannot play! Arghhhh! But thank God & FCBC Youthnet for uploading the videos for 40DOF on Youtube! Then we can like finally view the videos! Yay! (:

Then after that went to McDonald's! Bought HK toy. (:

I guess that's all. I've gtg. Byes~

"God will provide for you."

God ♥ YOU, ME! (:

Verse 1:
There is Love
That came for us
Humbled to a sinner’s cross
You broke my shame and sinfulness
You rose again victorious

Verse 2:
Faithfulness none can deny
Through the storm
And through the fire
There is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

Chorus:
You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me
It is written
Christ is risen
Jesus You are Lord of all

Verse 3:
No beginning and no end
You’re my hope and my defence
You came to seek and save the lost
You paid it all upon the cross

Bridge:
So let Your Name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher
Be lifted higher

-From: http://www.myworshiplyrics.com/2008/08/stronger-hillsong.html

It's easy to explain God's L-O-V-E. But not many people can truly understand His true GREATNESS. Why don't you give yourself a chance to understand His L-O-V-E? (:

Anws, i just hope that i'll become more faithful to God.

I believe every single person who has entered into my life has a purpose. Hmmm...what is your purpose for entering into my life? is it the purpose that i want? I really don't know. But i'm hoping & hoping. I can only hope.

"God, reveal Your plan to me. Will You?"

Ahaha!

Ytd i attended the Day of His Power! Different churches in Singapore gather tgt @ Max Pavilion to pray for Singapore! Then each of us were given a gift of a Key to symbolise something. The key is soooooooooooo nice! (:

Then ytd Florence gave me seaweed! & KITKAT FROM KOREA!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! (:

Then i also bought one Bitter Almond Kitto-Katto from Bishan! (:

Kit-Kat melts my heart man! :D

I currently have Kit-Kat from Singapore, Australia, Germany, Japan, Korea, & UK. I want Kit-Kat from USA! ^^!

12:32

Hmmm. Let me give you a summary of what happened this week.

On Thursday: I read this verse which i find it meaningful.

‎"If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ." -1 Peter 4:11(a).

It's like so true.

On Friday: After attachment i went out with my attachment friends to have dinner @ Manhattan! (: Love their butter garlic rice! :D

On Sat: Had my drums lesson. Wapiang ehh. I spent the whole lesson learning 2 bars & i can't even get it right! OMG. I think today is the FAIL lesson. really sian ttm. then i forgot to bring my hp. =.=" then watched Salt with wenwen. The movie is NICE! Like Angelina Jolie ttm man! So cool! (:

Next movie: Inception. Still waiting to rent my Despicable Me. (:

Hmmm...i think the rest of the weeks i needa study study study. Anws, the first day of the YOU CAN! has like FAILed. =( hope to see good results next week! (:

Upcoming Event: 18th Birthday! I really want want want want Hello Kitty!

Saw sooooooooo many HK stuff today! Got HK mat, HK JIGSAW PUZZLE!!!!!! (3D), HK Puzzle maker, HK machine to boil water, HK Super BIG cup. Hope to get it! (:

"Speak nothing but the truth."

You Understand?

Hohoho. 1 more month plus to my birthday! I'm going to buy myself Hello Kitty this birthday. I've bought myself a HK pendent from Poh Heng. Now all i need to buy is the HK jibbitz from crocs, HK lollipop, and a HK postcard! (: Hello Kitty! (:

Yesterday night went to DG Green's Sakura to celebrate my brother's 21st birthday. (: their food not bad. but i guess they shouldn't put sauce @ their satay or dory fish cos some people may not like it. So i guess they should put it @ the side...when people want they cn just take.

Anws, today i attended service. Ps Nina shared something from the bible. Faith is believing in something which you do not see. But you will see what you believe. something like that. Anws, listened to One Way by Hillsong United otw to Expo. It said "We live by faith and not by sight."

& Ps Nina or Ps Khong said "We act by faith and not by sight." I got something to say about this. But apparently i have forgotten. =.=''

Anws, i guess stepping out in faith is important as christians. I must constantly remind myself that "nothing is impossible."